Doing fine
Hi.
So I didn't join their trip to Hamanako even though I wanted to go just because I feel like I'm gonna be the third wheel in the car. As I expected, all the boys rode in stream except for the lovely couple.
Ugh.
It's gonna be like this all the time.
I'm staying strong not to feel all jealous. Because honestly I do.
I wanna avoid them as much as possible. So that I don't have to feel anything.
I know I've lost my faith. It's the battle inside me that nobody really know. I keep questioning my life. My religion. It's getting bad.
I'm trying to believe again. It's amazing how others do it. I'm so weak I can't even believe in anything...
I'm a bad person.
I hope that I'll be back on the right track.
I can only try.