Alone Time

[skunkrex]

Later, this evening, I keep finding myself being disappointed. I feel like I'm searching for peace and serenity, but I'm just not finding it. I'm listening to my worship music again, because I realize that God is, and will always be the only constant in my life, no matter what. He created me, and He is the ruler of my life. To those people that

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[oh_kate]

it's a jam that's not for every one darling. not everyone believes the same thing. but you know that. I've come to the conclusion that the one "constant" in my life, and it's not just one actually, are taxes, change, death, and I can never remember the fourth. I can always depend on change and myself and the fact that I have to adapt or evolve or else I'll be left behind. I have to fight to keep up. I have to keep going, always changing, always someone a little different, a little new tomorrow. as for god. or God I mean. I don't know. it's hard for me to explain but I don't feel like there's anything personal in it and yet I want to say (I find buddhism interesting) buddhism is more personal and yet whatever religion one believes, God is as personal to them as they make him. I think it's all in our heads, God is in our head. we make him what we want him to be. we make him what we want him to be to us, what we want him to mean to us. the same thing with ourselves. we make ourselves whom we want ourselves to be.

I say it over and over again. it's a state of mind. it's all in our heads. we doubt our powerful our minds are. I read a book once. it said to me well I read it but it did feel like it was speaking to me, but it said "Argue for your limitiations and sure enough they are your own." I repeat that to my friends all the time. to the silence around me. to myself. I can overcome anything if I put my little mind to it.

but then. but then I wonder, if I tell myself I'm happy, am I really? or is it a lie? is it all a lie?

...is it all a lie?