Let us not lift our souls to another

[skunkrex]

Today has been one of the strangest days I have ever had while being here at college. It was just really wierd. And a lot is running through my mind. I have a lot of issues going on right now. I know I probably shouldn't get too personal in these journal things, but I feel like I have no other medium of confession or expression, whatever this is. I just feel so overwhealmed lately, and I don't know what to do. I feel like things aren't going bad necessarily, but they just aren't good. I remember the days when they seemed perfect, and those seem so far away, like they happened years ago. The line from the Passion cd keeps running through my head...."Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts, let us not lift our souls to another. Oh God let us be, a generation that seeks, seeks your face, Oh God of Jacob." They are really powerful words that keep re-running in my head. I feel like God might be trying to tell me something, like to not try to do things on my own, but seek Him for help. I'm usually not one to seek help in ANYTHING either, so maybe this is God breaking down the walls that I've put up. Maybe this is my awakening that without Him I am nothing! So many people out there now, like the guy trying to take "One nation, under God" taken out of the pledge. This makes me so sad, to think that there's this guy out there that believes there is no God. What is going to happen to him when he dies? Does he even know what could happen to him? I know theres people out there that feel the same as him, or just question if theres a God or if there is any meaning or purpose to life. Well there is, I'm living proof. I feel called to do what I am doing solely by God, and no one else. I am here because God created me, gave life to me. I feel guilty when I do wrong, because the Holy Spirit inside of me makes me realize what I'm doing. I know, without a shadow of a doubt that when I die, I am going to heaven. I have that peace of mind that the Lord has bestowed in me, and lets me not worry about death. I know that there are people out there that just aren't sure, and for those I'll pray for. Even some of you that read this just don't understand why certain things happen. Don't look on this world for any of the answers, but look to God. This might sound like I'm preaching, but I'm not. This is a burden that I have for every lost person out there. Seek God and find your way home.
-Greg