If you could open your eyes

[skunkrex]

I'm such a bad person. I try to be a Godly example and I fail day in and day out. It's wierd how I can feel like I'm on such a spiritual high, and then Satan hits me with something new. Everything day seems like an uphill battle. One day, I feel like I'll be at the place where Satan can attack me, and I'll still stay strong, and won't be affected. Until then, I really believe God is teaching me patience, and giving me a strong will to perservere through anything, as long as I keep my eyes focused on Him. It really made me happy to see that someone had read this journal and it helped them out. If someone is reading this right now, I want you to know that if you're having a crappy day, or nothing seems to go right, or you just get depressed and can't figure out why, you're not alone. I deal with that several times a week. All you have to remember is that whatever happens happens for a reason, and its all in God's timing. If you cannot see beyond your own wants, needs, desires, thoughts, actions, etc. then you will never truly know what it feels like to be one with God. He is the greatest happiness you can and will ever feel, and to fully understand how awesome it really could be, seriously, just turn EVERYTHING to God. EVERYTHING. Your band, you girlfriend/boyfriend, your schoolwork, your friends, your struggles, your triumphs. Do everything for the Lord and wholeheartedly for the Lord. Whatever you do, don't do it with half the effort, but put everything you have into it, like Jesus did enduring the pain before the cross. Whatever you do, remember God IS WATCHING, the creator of me, the creator of you, and the creator of everything you see around you. God is real. God is EVERYTHING.
-GregSFN