The One
Today was a weird day to say the least! I woke up the most sore I have ever Been in my life. I hadn't done legs in like a week and a half, and I pushed 365 on the leg press machine. The week before I had only put up 255 on the same machine, good improvement, but I burnt myself out way too much.
I had a good workout today too, but I was a little preoccupied with other matters. I hadn't talked to my good friend who I wont mention at all in the past few days, and I was starting to get upset. I kept calling and I hate when I do that, its really stupid, it makes me look bad, and it gets me more pissed off than I really should be. Thats one thing that I deffinately need to work on, my possesiveness. Its not that I don't try to change it, its that the situation is very complex, and its hard for me not to care that much about this person, but I really know it comes off the wrong way. The only reason I do it though is because of how much I really adore this person. It is a hard thing to give your all to someone and then just try and stop those feelings; it is usually an impossible thing when you really don't want it to be that way.
It all worked out good in the end though, because my friend called me up and appoligized, and we ended up hanging out which was really needed after this long weekend. I think we both needed to see each other, really. It felt good to just relax and watch a movie alone with this person. Its really hard once you get in that mind set that you think something is wrong even though it isn't. It makes you feel like you've been betrayed even though you have no evidence of anything. It sucks to freak out for nothing, its deffinately my worst attribute and makes me seem jealous even though I'm really not. Even though I doubt this person will ever read what I am putting down on this page, I want them to know that the only reason I ever came off that way was because of how much I honestly cared. I never meant for things to be like this, and I doubt you did, but we both know things will get better soon.
Bench 155 Solid, Leg Press/Squat Machine 365
No Matter what happens, I'm here....
I had a good workout today too, but I was a little preoccupied with other matters. I hadn't talked to my good friend who I wont mention at all in the past few days, and I was starting to get upset. I kept calling and I hate when I do that, its really stupid, it makes me look bad, and it gets me more pissed off than I really should be. Thats one thing that I deffinately need to work on, my possesiveness. Its not that I don't try to change it, its that the situation is very complex, and its hard for me not to care that much about this person, but I really know it comes off the wrong way. The only reason I do it though is because of how much I really adore this person. It is a hard thing to give your all to someone and then just try and stop those feelings; it is usually an impossible thing when you really don't want it to be that way.
It all worked out good in the end though, because my friend called me up and appoligized, and we ended up hanging out which was really needed after this long weekend. I think we both needed to see each other, really. It felt good to just relax and watch a movie alone with this person. Its really hard once you get in that mind set that you think something is wrong even though it isn't. It makes you feel like you've been betrayed even though you have no evidence of anything. It sucks to freak out for nothing, its deffinately my worst attribute and makes me seem jealous even though I'm really not. Even though I doubt this person will ever read what I am putting down on this page, I want them to know that the only reason I ever came off that way was because of how much I honestly cared. I never meant for things to be like this, and I doubt you did, but we both know things will get better soon.
Bench 155 Solid, Leg Press/Squat Machine 365
No Matter what happens, I'm here....