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Time for an update. So let us get right to it and
not beat around the bush. Finally got myself a job. Hooray for me!!! I
work in a restaurant at the mall called Dunderbak's (in Florida it's
called Mr. Dunderbak's). It's a bar/deli. They serve beer from all over
the world and deli sandwiches and such. They also have a little
"market" as they call it in the front where you can buy candy and such.
I work up in the front running the cash register. Sounds like a simple
enough job, and i myself think that it is, but apparently after only 3
days I am the best cashier they have ever had up in the front. I'm
happy with the job, it's a hell of a lot more relaxed than my last job,
even if I did take a pay cut. All in all I'm glad I got the job, I hope
to stay there for a while, and I'm not nervous at all with this job
which is a big change for me.
I don't know why (nor do I care) I'm not nervous about this job. Normally when I start a new job I'm a nervous wreck for at least the first 2 weeks after getting the job. This time, however, it's completely different. Perhaps it's due to age, I may never really know. All I do know is that I have been dealing with A LOT of shit this past year, and at one point I was truly afraid that I would not make it through, but it seems as though I have. I wish that I had the words, or maybe just the vocabulary, to put to words what it is that I'm feeling, but unfortunately I do not. It's been a long time since I've been this comfortable with myself and this confidante in myself. It's just a refreshing place to be in. One thing is for sure, the next time you guys down in the sunshine state see me, I may just be a different person. I'll still be me, just MORE like me, if you get what I mean. I'm still dealing with "stuff", but things feel as though they are getting better.
Another good note is that Shannon and I got our retirement money from our last place of employment a few weeks ago. We now have a "cushion" in case anything bad happens. We just haven't been going out and spending money like it's going out of style. It's kind of refreshing to have money just sitting there in the bank and know that you could go and spend it, but you just really have no desire to. I know what I need to spend a lot of the money on, I'm just not in a big rush to do it. I know I'll get around to it, and the longer I wait, the more money that will be saved up to do so. I guess all in all I'm just really happy to finally be in a comfortable place.
As a side note, Shannon and I would like to extend our house to anyone who has a vacation coming up. If anyone is looking for a place to go and/or stay we would be MORE than happy to let you stay with us. So, if you are interested, just let me know.
I don't know why (nor do I care) I'm not nervous about this job. Normally when I start a new job I'm a nervous wreck for at least the first 2 weeks after getting the job. This time, however, it's completely different. Perhaps it's due to age, I may never really know. All I do know is that I have been dealing with A LOT of shit this past year, and at one point I was truly afraid that I would not make it through, but it seems as though I have. I wish that I had the words, or maybe just the vocabulary, to put to words what it is that I'm feeling, but unfortunately I do not. It's been a long time since I've been this comfortable with myself and this confidante in myself. It's just a refreshing place to be in. One thing is for sure, the next time you guys down in the sunshine state see me, I may just be a different person. I'll still be me, just MORE like me, if you get what I mean. I'm still dealing with "stuff", but things feel as though they are getting better.
Another good note is that Shannon and I got our retirement money from our last place of employment a few weeks ago. We now have a "cushion" in case anything bad happens. We just haven't been going out and spending money like it's going out of style. It's kind of refreshing to have money just sitting there in the bank and know that you could go and spend it, but you just really have no desire to. I know what I need to spend a lot of the money on, I'm just not in a big rush to do it. I know I'll get around to it, and the longer I wait, the more money that will be saved up to do so. I guess all in all I'm just really happy to finally be in a comfortable place.
As a side note, Shannon and I would like to extend our house to anyone who has a vacation coming up. If anyone is looking for a place to go and/or stay we would be MORE than happy to let you stay with us. So, if you are interested, just let me know.