*sigh*

[skunkfox]

Alright, this is something I've been keeping quiet for awhile but as it doesn't matter anymore I might as well tell ya'll. There's something wrong with my spinal cord, an infections been running rampant in it the past two weeks. The doctors aren't sure whats causing the infection but they're testing for everything from the chemicals present in my blood to my many medications I'm on some serious antibiotics right now to fight the infection but they're only keeping it from spreading according to my doctors. I may end up in a wheelchair a few years sooner then planned if they have to use surgery to remove it. I'm scared I admit that willingly enough. I'm also going to end up in some serious debt if surgery becomes the option as the state revoked my health benefits saying I'm 'perfectly healthy to work' nevermind I have 4 mental disorders, and 12 permant injuries preventing me from doing almost 90% of the jobs out there that require any kind of lifting. As of right now I'm honestly considering suicide as a very very nice alternitive. debt, medical, nothing's working right anymore I'm half deaf for gods sakes!

somebody fucking kill me