All is right?
So life is an interesting thing. I sit here in as clear a mind as I have had in along time....no drugs are in me and I have not been drinking. I have been high on life lately. I love my friends like family. I played all weekend with Keith and Lisa. It was a stellar time. Drinking friday was pretty awesome also. My friends are wonderful people. Though as of late something has been bothering me. At first I thought it was Amy dumping me really out of the blue. That while it made me feel like shit for a few days was not it....I saw that comming after being avoided for several days. Nor was it anything after. Turns out that is was life returning to normal for me. I've got a home, amazing friends, a job I more or less hate, and the thing that is getting to me is I should be all freaked out I think over the things that are happening. Like getting dumped, and in all likely hood getting fired soon. But I'm not. I'm at ease and really happy. I have no one to let down, my bills will be caught up soon, I'm working on a plan for my future, with the exception of feeling like I let Amy down in some way I'm feeling awsome. Even with that I know I didn't or shouldn't because I was me. I always will be me. Good or bad....and lets be honest mostly bad....I'm Ian Gray. I wouldn't have it any other way.