the Good News Is, She Can't Have Babies And Won't Accept Gifts From Me
if i could take back everything in a second i would. im sorry and i would never want to lose you. you dont deserve to have this bullshit plague your mind throughout the day. you deserve so much more and i know i dont.
ive never been hte bad guy, its always me getting fucked over by my friends. and now something i promised myself id never do, something id never become, is what ive always hated. me. and now look, im doing the fucking.
i can think back and remember how heartbroken i was when carlee and alex were seeing eachother for a short time, and how much i just wanted to mame and set her hair on fire. or how many nights i sat in my room crying becuase cory and lauren got together again, and where and who was i left with? nothing and a whole lot of nothingness.
i dont know why i cant help how i feel, im trying as hard as i can to push everythign down and away. i dont want to hurt you jo-d and i hope you understand that.
maybe if i was a bitch or maybe if he was a dick, everything would be fine and i could forget about everything thats happening. but dont you dare for one minute, put me above you, and think of yourself as the worst person ever. i dont give a fuck if you are the worst person ever, if you are so be it, i still love you. im always gonna love you jo-d. tell everyone and myself, a million times that youll never ever talk to me again, ill sitll love you.
i knew this would never go easy, it woudlnt work at all. i dont wanna say goodbye to anyone, and i dont want you to walk away on me ither. and i knew the consequences of being happy would come at the highest price. because this paradise comes at a price i wasnt prepared or willing to pay.
it sounds completely ridulous but what ever you want me to do, ill do it.
for once i wish i could be heartless and not give a shit what anyone felt. i always end up unhappy becuase i care more about my friends then i do about me. i jsut wanted to be happy again, but i fucking know for me to be hapy makes other people miserable.
im sorry.
i dont understand where you can be so perfect.
ive never been hte bad guy, its always me getting fucked over by my friends. and now something i promised myself id never do, something id never become, is what ive always hated. me. and now look, im doing the fucking.
i can think back and remember how heartbroken i was when carlee and alex were seeing eachother for a short time, and how much i just wanted to mame and set her hair on fire. or how many nights i sat in my room crying becuase cory and lauren got together again, and where and who was i left with? nothing and a whole lot of nothingness.
i dont know why i cant help how i feel, im trying as hard as i can to push everythign down and away. i dont want to hurt you jo-d and i hope you understand that.
maybe if i was a bitch or maybe if he was a dick, everything would be fine and i could forget about everything thats happening. but dont you dare for one minute, put me above you, and think of yourself as the worst person ever. i dont give a fuck if you are the worst person ever, if you are so be it, i still love you. im always gonna love you jo-d. tell everyone and myself, a million times that youll never ever talk to me again, ill sitll love you.
i knew this would never go easy, it woudlnt work at all. i dont wanna say goodbye to anyone, and i dont want you to walk away on me ither. and i knew the consequences of being happy would come at the highest price. because this paradise comes at a price i wasnt prepared or willing to pay.
it sounds completely ridulous but what ever you want me to do, ill do it.
for once i wish i could be heartless and not give a shit what anyone felt. i always end up unhappy becuase i care more about my friends then i do about me. i jsut wanted to be happy again, but i fucking know for me to be hapy makes other people miserable.
im sorry.
i dont understand where you can be so perfect.