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did you ever love something about you that you never wanted to change and then out of peer pressure changed it and now look at it and laught about it, but still wonder should you have done it??
I know that seems weird..but. Im not really one to regret things. I usually take my time planning and thinking things out before doing things. But i have just done something that i think i might regret later..and its worrying me. Its a little personal matter that if you want i can share with some of you at an appropriate time..if it feels right but its not something i want publicised. But yes. Im not sure about my emotions yet as to how its made me feel. I feel that same. I look...somewhat the same...yet i cant help but have this feeling that, i may have done the wrong thing? or maybe it was the right thing but i shouldnt have done it at this moment in time...AND what killing me more is that it has to be a secret. So, there.
Thats what im feeling right now. *sighs*
i think i just needed that off my chest.
Am I the only person that has gone from like months of not doing anything to weeks of being full and not being about to do anything!? i mean really. If you spoke to me like 2 weeks ago i would be like "get me out of the houseeeee!!!!! I NEED SOME STIMULATION!!! GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DO ALL IVE BEEN DOING IS READING BOOKS!!!!" and now if you talk to me im more like: "nah im soooo sorry i cant do -insert- with you because im soo busy i have -insert list of things to do- and im sorry can we do it next month..."
So yeah, its annoying
Although i must admit the things that i am doing i LOVE. ie. lunch with sarah at tiny hidden resturants with people that dont speak much english, skipping a class at uni just for some me time, getting to uni early so that i can actually sit down and work out what it is that i need to do..before the night its due. etc.. lol
but yes. I must admit im looking forward to Steves and nats parties, a sleep over with a good friend of mine and Mac's bands gig in Barham. I must admit...i have a feeling that after all this is over; im going to be doing nothing for weeks!!!
I know that seems weird..but. Im not really one to regret things. I usually take my time planning and thinking things out before doing things. But i have just done something that i think i might regret later..and its worrying me. Its a little personal matter that if you want i can share with some of you at an appropriate time..if it feels right but its not something i want publicised. But yes. Im not sure about my emotions yet as to how its made me feel. I feel that same. I look...somewhat the same...yet i cant help but have this feeling that, i may have done the wrong thing? or maybe it was the right thing but i shouldnt have done it at this moment in time...AND what killing me more is that it has to be a secret. So, there.
Thats what im feeling right now. *sighs*
i think i just needed that off my chest.
Am I the only person that has gone from like months of not doing anything to weeks of being full and not being about to do anything!? i mean really. If you spoke to me like 2 weeks ago i would be like "get me out of the houseeeee!!!!! I NEED SOME STIMULATION!!! GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DO ALL IVE BEEN DOING IS READING BOOKS!!!!" and now if you talk to me im more like: "nah im soooo sorry i cant do -insert- with you because im soo busy i have -insert list of things to do- and im sorry can we do it next month..."
So yeah, its annoying
Although i must admit the things that i am doing i LOVE. ie. lunch with sarah at tiny hidden resturants with people that dont speak much english, skipping a class at uni just for some me time, getting to uni early so that i can actually sit down and work out what it is that i need to do..before the night its due. etc.. lol
but yes. I must admit im looking forward to Steves and nats parties, a sleep over with a good friend of mine and Mac's bands gig in Barham. I must admit...i have a feeling that after all this is over; im going to be doing nothing for weeks!!!