Moth to a flame?
I went to Sirena's journal. I don't know if I can explain what I was thinking. I wanted to tell her that I sometimes miss talking to her, that I don't remember those awkward lapses when there was nothing either of us had to say. Maybe we had those... I don't remember. I was going to tell her that, but I decided not to comment... and I was thinking about leaving a comment saying that I had decided not to leave a comment, but I knew that if I did that, she'd make cutting, sarcastic comments about my commenting on not commenting; because quite frankly, that's what I remembered while I was writing my comment I decided not to leave. I remembered how she always had something stinging to say, how she didn't respect me or my boundaries, and how she likes saying mean things. That's why I stopped talking to her.
I guess that doesn't stop me from being slightly drawn to her.
Did you ever find yourself drawn to something that repulses you if you get close to it?
I'm glad none of my friends are like that.
I hope this isn't too personal or anything. I thought about making it friends only, but then I thought, what good is it to hide this from people? If she happens to see it, maybe she'll realize how she treats people with contempt, and maybe she'll change. It may be a foolhardy thought, but we all need some hope that people will look at themselves and decide they need to change.
I looked at the channel list on IRC today... and I was disgusted by how many of the channel topics were just meanness and lewdness and sad horrible low states. Don't people realize how much all this meanness and rudeness infect the world around them and make things worse?
I imagine someone will say, "But Skreyola, you yourself say mean things."
I'm not talking about calling people to task or about saying, "hey, would you look at what you're doing?". I'm talking about meanness for the sake of meanness or for the sake of something to do or some lame excuse like that. People are mean to each other for no reason... and people want to claim they're mean and bad and nasty and I just don't understand why people want to be perceived as ugly mean and nasty. It doesn't make any sense! It's pointless and destructive and stupid! WHY DON"T YOU PEOPLE WAKE UP AND LOOK AROUND YOU?
Find someone tomorrow and do something nice to them.
(No, this doesn't have anything to do with the calendar.)
I guess that doesn't stop me from being slightly drawn to her.
Did you ever find yourself drawn to something that repulses you if you get close to it?
I'm glad none of my friends are like that.
I hope this isn't too personal or anything. I thought about making it friends only, but then I thought, what good is it to hide this from people? If she happens to see it, maybe she'll realize how she treats people with contempt, and maybe she'll change. It may be a foolhardy thought, but we all need some hope that people will look at themselves and decide they need to change.
I looked at the channel list on IRC today... and I was disgusted by how many of the channel topics were just meanness and lewdness and sad horrible low states. Don't people realize how much all this meanness and rudeness infect the world around them and make things worse?
I imagine someone will say, "But Skreyola, you yourself say mean things."
I'm not talking about calling people to task or about saying, "hey, would you look at what you're doing?". I'm talking about meanness for the sake of meanness or for the sake of something to do or some lame excuse like that. People are mean to each other for no reason... and people want to claim they're mean and bad and nasty and I just don't understand why people want to be perceived as ugly mean and nasty. It doesn't make any sense! It's pointless and destructive and stupid! WHY DON"T YOU PEOPLE WAKE UP AND LOOK AROUND YOU?
Find someone tomorrow and do something nice to them.
(No, this doesn't have anything to do with the calendar.)