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Hey guys... Don't you just hate it when you try so hard and so long to do something, but no matter how hard you try, you just can't do it? That's me. I try so hard to do so many things, but it just doesn't happen. I can't stop dreaming about Sara. And I mean literal dreams, in my sleep. Last week, I dreamed about her every night for the whole week. THE WHOLE FUCKING WEEK! Then, last night, after almost a week since my last dream, there she was again! The dreams I have are not, like, dirty or anything, they're just us together and that feeling that I would get when I would kiss her. Man, could I use a cigarrette right now... I mean, I don't smoke or anything, but I think that I want one. So anyway, she's moved on and I keep trying to tell myself that I have too. I feel like such a horrible person for telling someone that I wanted to go out with them, and I have no feelings for her. I'm kinda just trying to get my act together and have some fun in my last year of High School. Like Jeff Buckley so ellegantly said, "Maybe I'm just too young to keep good love from going wrong."