I LOVE YOU!
♥ .Baby this is for you. ♥
Derek Cameron Cheusde,
Where to start? You've been around since elementry school. NEVER would i dream that you and I would be where we are together at this point and time in life. Growing up together you and i were never as close as we were now, and i thank god for highschool. In some ways it took away all the friends i ever had, tore everyone apart, BUT without highschool you and i would never be as inseperable as we are now! I dont even remember when it happend, just one day you were there and the next day we were best friends. Funny how life works isnt it? I can recall a few times when i would be sitting on Mr.Murphys class or in PE thinking gosh that kid needs to realise hes white and shut up haha little did i know you were as incredible as you are. That expierance just taught me to look past the surface and quit being as shallow and judgemental. You are a blessing in my life. I thank god day in and day out for blessing me with a person as wonderful as you in my everyday life. You are a miracle Derek Cameron, and not just any mirable but my mircale! :) !
Threw all my hardships you were standing beside me with a smile on your face. I can picture times i would be upset and id look over and see you standing there looking threw the corner of your eye smiling and throwing your arms around me! I took all those times for granted, never really knowing all that i had in my life. You've always been there but its NOW that i see all that ive always had, ironic! You never gave up on me, took care of me and made me feel like i was the center of your world. You listen to me and my pathetic problems and you protect me and guide me threw this chaotic hassle i manage as life. Never giving up on me, and pushing me threw i thank you. Without you im not sure where id be in life. Your little reminders "baby, be nice" are enough to get me to shut my mouth. I hold a respect for you Derek, a respect that not very many people get from me, i hope you see that. I dont listen to people as i listen to you. You get me sooo mad and do things to me that i would snap on other people for but with you my patience in unlimited. I can put anything aside for you, your worth it. I dont know quite what it is in you Derek but whatever it is im head over heals for it.
Baby, I wish you could see how important you are to me, you mean the world and more to me. Being together, and best friends, i couldnt ask for more. You make promises to me, i trust you, your there for me threw thick and thin. When no one else is there to save me you are, when no one else is there to catch my when i fall your there. I can run away and you chase me down, i can be in your fucking face and you stay calm. We work well with eachother Derek, you keep me in line and balanced as i do for you. I love that. Apart were great, but together were perfect. A match made in heaven, so cliche but oh so perfect for this occasion. Even if things dont work out between us forever, i know that in the end you and i will be BEST FRIENDS until death to us part. You hold something in me that is rare something only Limary and Joe have managed to find, Limary holds it still shes unbeleiveable she surprises me everyday knowing what she does about me. Shes always right. Joe he took what he had in me and didnt know what to do with it, it was far to overwhelming for him, he handled it like a child and crushed me to peicecs. You on the other hand seem to hold me so delicate and handle me with care.
I love how we read eachtohers minds, never get tierd of eachother and can be complete asses around eachother and we really dont care. We know eachother so well its jaw dropping. I love how i can tell you anything and everything. Its amazing. I amaze myself at times. You and i are like two peas in a pod lol. Meeting your family, and becoming apart of them is something new to me. Family is important and yours in by far the best family ever, between your uncle wade and aunt melissa and then your grandma MAN i love them! Im getting adopted enough said =P. Then you meeting my dad, ill have you know Joe was the ONLY guy to ever meet my dad not only BOYFRIEND only guy, as well as boyfriend to meet my dad. Joe didnt techniclly meet my dad until 5 years into our relationship, but you it only took a few weeks. Im shocked. My dads taking a liking to you. You and my dad are alot alike, expect you dont have his temper. I think you and him are going to get along just cozy :)
This has got to be so long by now, im really sorry for boring you threw all this i really want you to know Derek how important you are to me, i cant loose you. Id be lost without you! You are my shining star i love you baby <3<3<3<3
Love Always,
~ Jaclyn Lee ♥
" you are my sunshine,
my only sunshne,
you make me happy,
when skies are gray.
you'll never know dear,
how much i love you,
so please dont take
my sunshine away. "