I Swear I Saw You In Myself...
I have heard many people, including myself, call themselves selfish. Then they decide that it's a trait that they must learn to accept in themselves. Sort of like a vulnerability for chocolate or men with tattoos. But I dont think it works like that. I think that selfishness is rooted from ignorance. An ignorance of the importance of friends and family. That your own happiness is directly or indirectly related to the happiness of those around you. So really, you become selfish when you start taking the people around you for granted.
My mom yelled at me today because I was staring at a kid walking on the sidewalk while we were waiting at a red light. And it's even a kid I know. But then she brought up that I stare at everyone and that I'm "so creepy!" Honestly, I’ve never noticed it before but I guess I do. But I don’t notice I’m staring, because when I’m looking at someone like that I’m trying to get a feeling of who they are, what they’re feeling, what they’re body language, their walk and everything about them says. She said that I stared at a guy in a car who drove up beside us, but it’s because he had a very nice expensive car and I wanted to see if he was living it up, if he was proud to be in it, showing it off even, or if he was a humble kind of guy. It wasn’t that I was staring...more...analyzing I guess.
Friday was probably one of the greatest nights in my entire life. Peace and love <3