Updations... huh?
Yea, so I don't even think updation is a word, but no one cares. Anyways, i guess it has been awhile since i updated this thing, so i guess i'll write stuff down... Life is going so awesome right now. As of friday, i will have absolutely nothing to do with the courst at all. no fees, no cases, no nothing. i'm so glad to be completely and totally done with all of that. everyone keeps telling me how proud they are of me pulling through all of this mess, getting everything in my life straightened out and heading myslef in the right direction without looking anywhere but forwards. honestly, i'm not sure what they are proud of. i wish i could see it. all i see is just me and doing what i have to in order to better myself, which is all i can do... all any of us can do. they say they are amazed at how i have persurvered when all they could see were roadblocks. i just wish i could be happy with myself and what i have done. i don't see me being done with this court stuff as me having accomplished something. i see it as an event in life finally coming to its end. i wish i could see it as what they describe it to me as.... me persurvering.
Anyways, since then, i have been able to enjoy life alot more. I have been able to party and hang out with my best buds at Purdue, love going to work at Hacienda, and now, on top of it all, I have a second full time job! two full time jobs and one part time... anyone that i tell i have three jobs says that they don't know how i do it and that i need to take time for myself. u know, people can take time to themselves when they are in a good spot to take time to themselves... i just have to keep my head to the grindstone. plus, i love the fact that i have three jobs! first of all, more money, second of all, i feel like i am working toward something, and third of all, i get to work with some great kids! i mean really! they're great kids. I work as a paraprofessional (teacher's aide) for the special ed. department at Adam's H.S. These kids are so amazing. I work with this one kid, Tony. Now this kid is someone that everyone should have the honor of meeting. He is mentally handicaped and cannot verbally communicate with anyone. But he has a velcro board with pictures that u or he can point to and the other knows what needs to happen next. when u look in this kids' eyes, u see nothing but joy and exuberance. u put out your hand as if asking for him to give u a high-five and he'll do that, but he'll just rest his hand on yours and u give him the high-five. that is a sign of trust. he loves to do puzzles. he'll go sit down and do a 500 piece puzzle within a class period. genious. i couldn't do one in a week! anyways, its a great job and i look forward to it every day. and i'm not saying it won't be hard, but just knowing these kids have nothing but the best intentions, that they know nothing but the best intentions, tells me that everything will be perfectly fine. oh, and i get to go hang out with kathleen wednesday after soccer house! this is a great week! in spite of being sick!
Anyways, since then, i have been able to enjoy life alot more. I have been able to party and hang out with my best buds at Purdue, love going to work at Hacienda, and now, on top of it all, I have a second full time job! two full time jobs and one part time... anyone that i tell i have three jobs says that they don't know how i do it and that i need to take time for myself. u know, people can take time to themselves when they are in a good spot to take time to themselves... i just have to keep my head to the grindstone. plus, i love the fact that i have three jobs! first of all, more money, second of all, i feel like i am working toward something, and third of all, i get to work with some great kids! i mean really! they're great kids. I work as a paraprofessional (teacher's aide) for the special ed. department at Adam's H.S. These kids are so amazing. I work with this one kid, Tony. Now this kid is someone that everyone should have the honor of meeting. He is mentally handicaped and cannot verbally communicate with anyone. But he has a velcro board with pictures that u or he can point to and the other knows what needs to happen next. when u look in this kids' eyes, u see nothing but joy and exuberance. u put out your hand as if asking for him to give u a high-five and he'll do that, but he'll just rest his hand on yours and u give him the high-five. that is a sign of trust. he loves to do puzzles. he'll go sit down and do a 500 piece puzzle within a class period. genious. i couldn't do one in a week! anyways, its a great job and i look forward to it every day. and i'm not saying it won't be hard, but just knowing these kids have nothing but the best intentions, that they know nothing but the best intentions, tells me that everything will be perfectly fine. oh, and i get to go hang out with kathleen wednesday after soccer house! this is a great week! in spite of being sick!