Jan 05, 2005 18:53
I have come to the undeniable conclusion that being a nice guy is self-depreciating and will almost always get me into situations where I am used or left feeling cheated.
Acting like a nice guy will get you much farther in life than being a nice guy.
When you act like a nice guy, people trust you. Then when they find out that you were doing things behind their back, they will take it as a sign that they weren't good enough, and they'll like you even more, or they will be pissed off at first and then melt when they think of all the times you acted like a nice guy.
Confusing? No. But I spend so much of my time trying to be nice and honest and understanding because I feel that people deserve that level of respect only to find out none of them were doing the same thing, not just to me, but to everyone.
And everyone eventually forgives and forgets, after all, everyone was guilty in some way, but I don't have anything to forgive, so I'm suddenly left out.
It appears that because I am such a nice guy nobody wants to let me in on what they're doing. I learn second hand or just guess.
Well you know what? Fuck it. I don't care. I'm not going to change just because everyone else is fucking each other over. Let them forgive each other because they'll just get fucked over again, and then they'll forgive each other again, etc. infinity.
There are nice, decent people out there. It only took me twenty-four years to find four that I can trust outside of my family. I should live at least another twenty-four. That's eight people I can trust before I'm fifty. Wow, I suddenly feel lucky.