Prepping for Seder
Today is Good Friday. I've never understood why it is termed "Good" Friday when today is the day we celebrate Christ's sacrifice on the cross. I realize that it is good that He did that and all, but it seems like this would be Dark Friday or something and Sunday, the resurrection celebration, would be Good Sunday. I guess I just have a hard time watching The Passion Of The Christ and feel like it is a "good" day.
Speaking of that movie, I've been working on a video for our Good Friday service tonight with clips from it. I purposely did not buy the video or DVD of The Passion as I didn't not want to lessen or cheapen the experience I felt when I went to see it in the theater. So, as I began to work with these video clips and put them together, I found myself in tears again. It was definitely hard to get the project started, as I could hardly bear to watch the clips. However, my sense of technical perfection took over and I was able to seperate myself from it, to finish the movie. I find now, that when I watch the compiled movie, that I see it from a technical standpoint and my heart does not seem to be touched by it at all. I am afraid that my earlier fears were proven correct, and that I've become callous to the impact of what my Savior did for me. I only pray that others don't feel the same and that the video will hit home with many and reignite their passion for Christ, through re-experiencing His Passion.
Other than that, today has been spent preparing for our Seder celebration. This will be our eighth year of celebrating a messianic passover. I am really stoked about it and really enjoy this time of fellowship and the meal. It is something that I think the Church has lost out on when the Agape meal was done away with in the Middle Ages. It is important for us, as Christians, to share fellowship around a table. Jesus spent so much of the time that is recorded of His life, around a table and sharing meals with others. Jewish culture highly valued going into someone else's home and breaking bread together. I think that's one reason the Church grew so fast in the first century, as they gathered, not in Synagogues and Auditoriums, but in living rooms and houses.
Haven't really heard from God yet, and honestly, haven't found the time in this crazy week to go to my prayer closet. Why do I find myself so busy? Am I so afraid to be alone with God that I subconsciously fill my time with stuff, so as not to have time to be in solitude? More than likely. No, actually, the answer is assuredly, yes. I think now that I need to start a fast, so as to have some time to force myself to solitude. The paradox of truly wanting to hear from God and yet running from Him is astounding.
Speaking of that movie, I've been working on a video for our Good Friday service tonight with clips from it. I purposely did not buy the video or DVD of The Passion as I didn't not want to lessen or cheapen the experience I felt when I went to see it in the theater. So, as I began to work with these video clips and put them together, I found myself in tears again. It was definitely hard to get the project started, as I could hardly bear to watch the clips. However, my sense of technical perfection took over and I was able to seperate myself from it, to finish the movie. I find now, that when I watch the compiled movie, that I see it from a technical standpoint and my heart does not seem to be touched by it at all. I am afraid that my earlier fears were proven correct, and that I've become callous to the impact of what my Savior did for me. I only pray that others don't feel the same and that the video will hit home with many and reignite their passion for Christ, through re-experiencing His Passion.
Other than that, today has been spent preparing for our Seder celebration. This will be our eighth year of celebrating a messianic passover. I am really stoked about it and really enjoy this time of fellowship and the meal. It is something that I think the Church has lost out on when the Agape meal was done away with in the Middle Ages. It is important for us, as Christians, to share fellowship around a table. Jesus spent so much of the time that is recorded of His life, around a table and sharing meals with others. Jewish culture highly valued going into someone else's home and breaking bread together. I think that's one reason the Church grew so fast in the first century, as they gathered, not in Synagogues and Auditoriums, but in living rooms and houses.
Haven't really heard from God yet, and honestly, haven't found the time in this crazy week to go to my prayer closet. Why do I find myself so busy? Am I so afraid to be alone with God that I subconsciously fill my time with stuff, so as not to have time to be in solitude? More than likely. No, actually, the answer is assuredly, yes. I think now that I need to start a fast, so as to have some time to force myself to solitude. The paradox of truly wanting to hear from God and yet running from Him is astounding.