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i really do forget i have one of these.
i guess i just dont feel like sharing my life as much anymore.
well, long story short.
i met a boy. after 5 months we finally said how we felt.
we fell in love. we dated. he saw his ex. i broke up with him.
he didn't really deserve me anyways, as bad as that sounds.
if he's not crazy about me, im not wasting my time.
and now im here. yeah, im heart broken. im hurt.
ive never felt so used and deserted in my life.
he decided he likes another girl better.
one that he has only seen 7 times.
they dont talk everyday.
she doesnt care when he gets mad
thye make no effort to see each other
but they have good phone conversations.
i think its bullshit.
and im better than that.
so i messed up a little.
didnt think some choices through all the way.
but we're working on being friends still.
he's not going to be with either of us right now
who knows later on though.
but at this point, im not going to be with someone
if theyre not positive they want to be with me.
he should've known from the start, and instead
he went behind my back and told her he wanted to be with her.
except for the fact that he only dated her for one week.
that one week he cheated on her with me (i didnt know they were dating)
and he broke up with her to tell me he loved me.
and he kept telling me that for 2 months
and began telling her that again also.
he's a jerk sometimes. and now i don't trust him.
but he's also the sweetest guy ever
and he does everything he knows to do to make me trust him.
but he also knows he has to work wayyyy hard to gain any of
my trust, love, anything back.
but even after everything, he's still my best friend first.
and we're trying to make our friendship work.
because he wants more people in his life so he's finding girls
its the wrong way to go about it, but whatever.
but we still need each other
because we're basically all each other has.
so i dont know what to do.
i care about him too much to just walk out on him
and i wont be that person who leaves just because im upset.
so, i dont know. the past two months have been pretty
stressful, but i think they'll get better from here on out.
or at least i hope so.
i guess i just dont feel like sharing my life as much anymore.
well, long story short.
i met a boy. after 5 months we finally said how we felt.
we fell in love. we dated. he saw his ex. i broke up with him.
he didn't really deserve me anyways, as bad as that sounds.
if he's not crazy about me, im not wasting my time.
and now im here. yeah, im heart broken. im hurt.
ive never felt so used and deserted in my life.
he decided he likes another girl better.
one that he has only seen 7 times.
they dont talk everyday.
she doesnt care when he gets mad
thye make no effort to see each other
but they have good phone conversations.
i think its bullshit.
and im better than that.
so i messed up a little.
didnt think some choices through all the way.
but we're working on being friends still.
he's not going to be with either of us right now
who knows later on though.
but at this point, im not going to be with someone
if theyre not positive they want to be with me.
he should've known from the start, and instead
he went behind my back and told her he wanted to be with her.
except for the fact that he only dated her for one week.
that one week he cheated on her with me (i didnt know they were dating)
and he broke up with her to tell me he loved me.
and he kept telling me that for 2 months
and began telling her that again also.
he's a jerk sometimes. and now i don't trust him.
but he's also the sweetest guy ever
and he does everything he knows to do to make me trust him.
but he also knows he has to work wayyyy hard to gain any of
my trust, love, anything back.
but even after everything, he's still my best friend first.
and we're trying to make our friendship work.
because he wants more people in his life so he's finding girls
its the wrong way to go about it, but whatever.
but we still need each other
because we're basically all each other has.
so i dont know what to do.
i care about him too much to just walk out on him
and i wont be that person who leaves just because im upset.
so, i dont know. the past two months have been pretty
stressful, but i think they'll get better from here on out.
or at least i hope so.