cried my self to sleep lastnight
ok lastnight was awesome, i went to a great concert,asi lay dying, then i got home and talk to someone i havent talked to in nearly a year, i mean really talked to we said hi to each other and all that at time but never really talked in that year. i talked ot my ex girlfriend, the only girl that has ever stolen my heart away, she now in nyc at this performing arts school, and shes had a bf for about 11 months now, but her and i talked, and she told me how she still cares for me alot , and still loves me, but she doesnt know how she loves me, she loves me as a goodfriend, and thats it, this is a girl i dated nearly 2 years, and i was on the edge of proposing to, i was secertly selling my rx7 to get a ring, then blamo she did a 180 and just stopped loving me. but lastnight she told me how she misses hanging out with me, and she konws she hurt me badly. the thing is i have tried for over a year to forget this girl, i have tried to hate her and do all i can to forget her, but still to this day i remember the first time i looked in her eyes, and the first time, i held her in my arms when she was asleep, and all the times i would hold her in my arms when she would cry and i would tell her its all gonna be alright.i remember this time she jumpped off a swing and kicked me in the mouth and seperated my jaw, and she cried and played with my hair as i lay on her lap and passed out from pain. all i can do now is wish her good health, luck, and a happy future, and try and forget the only girl that holds my heart in the palm of her hands. but anyhow i cried myself asleep remembering the times her and i shared.