hurt
so it's been two weeks since i hurt my shoulder and everything is kind of a big mess. every doctor i've seen has given me a different opinion and i don't know what to do. the doctors in san diego are telling me to get an mri as soon as possible, but the doctor here, who is supposed to be cutting me open in a weeks time,is saying i don't need one and that she won't even give me a referral to get one. i'm just really confused and i don't know who to trust. it's so hard to put my life, my future, in someone's hands that i don't even know. i have to base a really big decision on someone's reputation and i'm not comfortable with that. i really just wish that one of those ignorant doctor's had of told me that the fractured bone could be a problem if it moved more than a cm. i had no idea and was only concerned about the soft tissues and getting a mri. here i am walking around, jogging, cooking, doing normal things as long as they don't hurt. now all of a sudden i'm scheduled for surgery for something i had no idea about. why do these people get paid so much money to be morons? i'm so mad and i feel like punching them all in the faces. if someone had of told me "now be extra careful, because if that bone moves more than a cm than we might have to operate on it" then i would have laid in bed for two weeks, making sure that nothing was going to make it move. i could have avoided surgery all together if just one of them hadn't of been a complete idiot and had of done their job right. i could be of been back in time for camp and new zealand, but instead i get to do nothing for three months and hope that the bone stays in place and then hope that none of the ligaments are torn and that the first time i go snowboarding my arm doesn't pop out of my shoulder. fuck, i just don't want to be hurt. i really just wish this hadn't of happened.
killing it. photo credit to sean hoglin
killing it. photo credit to sean hoglin