Relapse!!!
XxXxX
ive never had such a big smile on my face as when im danceing! Thats my calling and i plan to folow it! Fuck the people who think im not good enough! Sorry for all the curseing!
Its Like this you can hate me OR Love me ither way ur still thinking of me and im flattered! Im just tired of all peoples Crap its like i rele dont care about how you wanna be like me! when if you figured out my mental state you'd prob runaway screaming!
Anyway on the Brighter note Ive Relapsed into cutting again! My stomach and Legs! Not pretty! and peircing myself! I just feel Lost in this Body and Mind! And Lifes just not good right now! Ik ill regret it when somebody sees the scars but the release is amazing! Its Like when you do it you dont think of all the reprucussins and once you start again you just cant stop! Id never try to take my like again though like i did on 9.1.09 that was the single and worst day of my Life!
I hate myself for relapseing but i just cant help it!
All i want in this world is 1 thing
1.Somebody to reach out and help me!!! Well like Randy said " you have to let them help and stop pushing them away!" Why cant i just do this Instead i continue to Lye! And Lye and Lye! evreyone thinks im recovered, im fine but im on the EDGE! And i hate it here and i want to be better mentally but i dont want to let go of Ana! Or cutting! But ik deep inside its a choice i have to make one day!That day is not today, that day will be when im 99 pounds! and ill get there oh yes i will!
Damn (again Sorry) Im weird!
XxXxX
ive never had such a big smile on my face as when im danceing! Thats my calling and i plan to folow it! Fuck the people who think im not good enough! Sorry for all the curseing!
Its Like this you can hate me OR Love me ither way ur still thinking of me and im flattered! Im just tired of all peoples Crap its like i rele dont care about how you wanna be like me! when if you figured out my mental state you'd prob runaway screaming!
Anyway on the Brighter note Ive Relapsed into cutting again! My stomach and Legs! Not pretty! and peircing myself! I just feel Lost in this Body and Mind! And Lifes just not good right now! Ik ill regret it when somebody sees the scars but the release is amazing! Its Like when you do it you dont think of all the reprucussins and once you start again you just cant stop! Id never try to take my like again though like i did on 9.1.09 that was the single and worst day of my Life!
I hate myself for relapseing but i just cant help it!
All i want in this world is 1 thing
1.Somebody to reach out and help me!!! Well like Randy said " you have to let them help and stop pushing them away!" Why cant i just do this Instead i continue to Lye! And Lye and Lye! evreyone thinks im recovered, im fine but im on the EDGE! And i hate it here and i want to be better mentally but i dont want to let go of Ana! Or cutting! But ik deep inside its a choice i have to make one day!That day is not today, that day will be when im 99 pounds! and ill get there oh yes i will!
Damn (again Sorry) Im weird!
XxXxX