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so... end of the year. and what a year it has been. Freshman year pales in comparison. It's as though i spent 9th grade learning the ropes: making mistakes, finding myself, learning God, questioning things... and now, i've sort of got it figured out. and this year was all about trying out this whole 'being me' thing. and it's been absolutely incredible.
I've been blessed with the most incredible friends, who have made me laugh and made me cry and made me punch things and made me jump up and down... friends that i wouldn't trade for all the world. i've been blessed with confidence. i'm sure of myself, where i am, why i'm here, and what exactly it is i want to do. i'm sure of my actions, my words, my thoughts, my opinions... i know now. things clicked. i've been blessed with opportunity after opportunity. through drum major, junior cabinet, NHC... and just being surrounded by so many incredible people, i have the chance to make an impact: i can institute change, for good or worse. and i think that's what next year will be about. learning to handle responsibilities and opportunities. learning to make decisions for a group, learning to do what's best for others and never think of myself.
boys boys boys... i couldn't do an end-of-year entry without addressing it, and you all know it. and you know you got excited when you read this. i've learned in a few more ways how not to love, and a little bit better how to love. i'm learning what loving people is all about. and that isn't just guys... its everyone. i'm learning how to love everyone i meet.. even the most unlovable. even the ones id rather not associate with, i'm learning to love, for what they are. and in return, they're loving me for what i am. and i finally FINALLY know what that is. and this summer? it's all about 1. relaxing 2. revving up for next year 3. fun times with my girls and 4. fun times with my boy.
this year has been incredible. thank you so much for making it so. last year i found my strengths... and this year i'm playing to them. thank you thank you thank you. y'all are the ones who made it amazing. and next year... next year will be even better.