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this hurts... all of it hurts... im so sick of putting up these facades... pretending all day, every day that im okay when im NOT. im not okay at all... im so lonely it hurts. it feels like my ribs are being crushed, like someone has my throat in a death grip. whenever im alone, hes all i can think about, and it hurts. trying to sleep is the worst... in the dark, alone, with nothing to distract me from my thoughts. nothing to take away from it. i dont want to go to sleep. but i dont want to stay awake. either way, it hurts. IM NOT OKAY. im not okay, and nobody knows...