everything went to shit
well, everything went to shit this week...
ive lost everything in one night, my life is gone, i actually have a pain in my heart. it hurts so bad. i mean, yeah it may be good, but ive figured everything out that i need to, ive learned my lesson, i just want everything back. ive lost myself. its hard to not be upset every night wen im by myself thinking. its so hard to see him and not beable to have anything happen. its so hard to lose the one u love most. its lost, everything, my heart, my hope, my mind. i cant find who i am without him there. yeah, i have people to count on, and i have friends who are there, but i need him, not just a friend, but more than that, hes my only one, the only guy i have ever loved. i may have claimed i loved chris, but i didnt, not at all. im trying to keep my head up, and im trying to stay strong, but every heart-beat is another thought of old times in my head. every movement of every day, every single thing, reminds me of him. I Love Him. still. everything is sorted out, but that, and its messing me up so bad, because i miss it so much. i just want another chance, everything back. everything to happen all over again, i wasnt who i could've been. i just miss him so much.
-Sarah
ive lost everything in one night, my life is gone, i actually have a pain in my heart. it hurts so bad. i mean, yeah it may be good, but ive figured everything out that i need to, ive learned my lesson, i just want everything back. ive lost myself. its hard to not be upset every night wen im by myself thinking. its so hard to see him and not beable to have anything happen. its so hard to lose the one u love most. its lost, everything, my heart, my hope, my mind. i cant find who i am without him there. yeah, i have people to count on, and i have friends who are there, but i need him, not just a friend, but more than that, hes my only one, the only guy i have ever loved. i may have claimed i loved chris, but i didnt, not at all. im trying to keep my head up, and im trying to stay strong, but every heart-beat is another thought of old times in my head. every movement of every day, every single thing, reminds me of him. I Love Him. still. everything is sorted out, but that, and its messing me up so bad, because i miss it so much. i just want another chance, everything back. everything to happen all over again, i wasnt who i could've been. i just miss him so much.
-Sarah