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so bored and no one to talk to.
welll anyways formal is this weekend. should be a pretty good time, at fernbank and all. ohhh the flashbacks to prom. remember the whole prom alcohol bust? i remember it being such a big deal at the time but now it just seems funny.
you know what i hate? when you have energy and want to go out your friends are like "no, lets watch a movie" but when you dont feel good and want to stay in there are like a million parties going on. oh the irony.
so basically theta and nicholas house and soccer and school have completely taken over my life. in good new i will get into business school. which means law school. which means total domination.
so i dont talk to anyone from home anymore and i dont know how i feel about it. i mean im everyone feels like me and is like "if they wanted to stay friends they would call and make the effort." maybe we should all accept that we suck at friendship. i have! plus it just makes me depressed to hear about people from home fucking up their lives by pissing it away on drinking and drugs. dont get me wrong, those are fun things when used properly. when you are failing out of school maybe you should use your time to study rather than get wasted. just a thought.
it also makes me sad when people at home are stuck back in marietta. i dont mean literally, i mean they still talk about the same people and do all the same things as in high school. its probably really pretentious of me to say but i just think thats sad. even if you arent in college or you go to school back home there is a point where moving on is neccesary. forget about who you hung out with and what you did back at lassiter. that doesnt have to be you anymore.
anyways i am taking summer classes at kennesaw, if anyone else is tell me we will hang out. im taking astronomy and cosmology and chem w/ lab. sooooo if anyone else wants to take those we should take them at the same time. it will be pimp tight.
i think i might have social anxiety disorder in that i cant stand to be in large groups here unless im drunk....so i guess thats pretty messed up. there are some cool people here but in groups i just dont know what to do...i dont know how to be fake and make people like me. or maybe i do and just cant make myself. i dont know its something im struggling with. someone teach me how to make friends...i always just feel awkward and like people dont like me or want me there...but i guess thats how everyone feels. or a lot of people at least.
people keep telling me to try out for the soccer team here and im not sure what to do about that. my life is pretty crazy anyways, and it just seems like another avenue in which i will feel awkward and unwanted. its probably just one of those days.
at least ive got my boy ryan to talk to. he is an amazing person, and if you dont like ryan bell there is something wrong with you. period.
thats all. im sure i will be in a better mood tomorrow. TRAIL OF DEAD! yesssss
welll anyways formal is this weekend. should be a pretty good time, at fernbank and all. ohhh the flashbacks to prom. remember the whole prom alcohol bust? i remember it being such a big deal at the time but now it just seems funny.
you know what i hate? when you have energy and want to go out your friends are like "no, lets watch a movie" but when you dont feel good and want to stay in there are like a million parties going on. oh the irony.
so basically theta and nicholas house and soccer and school have completely taken over my life. in good new i will get into business school. which means law school. which means total domination.
so i dont talk to anyone from home anymore and i dont know how i feel about it. i mean im everyone feels like me and is like "if they wanted to stay friends they would call and make the effort." maybe we should all accept that we suck at friendship. i have! plus it just makes me depressed to hear about people from home fucking up their lives by pissing it away on drinking and drugs. dont get me wrong, those are fun things when used properly. when you are failing out of school maybe you should use your time to study rather than get wasted. just a thought.
it also makes me sad when people at home are stuck back in marietta. i dont mean literally, i mean they still talk about the same people and do all the same things as in high school. its probably really pretentious of me to say but i just think thats sad. even if you arent in college or you go to school back home there is a point where moving on is neccesary. forget about who you hung out with and what you did back at lassiter. that doesnt have to be you anymore.
anyways i am taking summer classes at kennesaw, if anyone else is tell me we will hang out. im taking astronomy and cosmology and chem w/ lab. sooooo if anyone else wants to take those we should take them at the same time. it will be pimp tight.
i think i might have social anxiety disorder in that i cant stand to be in large groups here unless im drunk....so i guess thats pretty messed up. there are some cool people here but in groups i just dont know what to do...i dont know how to be fake and make people like me. or maybe i do and just cant make myself. i dont know its something im struggling with. someone teach me how to make friends...i always just feel awkward and like people dont like me or want me there...but i guess thats how everyone feels. or a lot of people at least.
people keep telling me to try out for the soccer team here and im not sure what to do about that. my life is pretty crazy anyways, and it just seems like another avenue in which i will feel awkward and unwanted. its probably just one of those days.
at least ive got my boy ryan to talk to. he is an amazing person, and if you dont like ryan bell there is something wrong with you. period.
thats all. im sure i will be in a better mood tomorrow. TRAIL OF DEAD! yesssss