word vomit.
eric and i aren't speaking. its weird. he went from saying how he's liked me since i started dating andrew and was ready to dump his girlfriend for me to the complete opposite saying i was a whore and deserved sebastian. what an asshole.
i have too much faith in people. friends tell me to stay away from people and i always decide no, i'll give them a chance. in every single instance that i've been given that sort of advice, they were right. so why do i keep giving people chances?
jason's been in vegas for what feels like forever & i don't see howard or darryl as much as before. it's weird.
nikki comes back on friday, so at least i'll have a roommate and a friend up here who doesn't have a penis.
it's been lonely here. i've been in my new apartment for almost a week and a half now and i haven't even met the roommate that supposedly lives upstairs.
also, there are way too many sirens here. it's quite disturbing. i hear sirens then go to my window and look out at sierra st only to find its just another ambulance. it really bothers me that that many people could be in trouble all the time. sure i understand that sometimes its precautionary, but its still crazy to think about.
dance starts back up in 6 days and i'm not ready for it. i've gotten lazy, but i guess that needs to change since school starts in 12 days.
i decided to start working out and stretching again to prepare for dance. i ran 3 miles and did 100 crunches. i also realized that i still have my left & middle splits. just the darn right side that needs to be worked on. i'd forgotten how much i hated working my arms. UGH! i'll just be glad when i see the definition i used to.
michael phelps is an amazing man. the only thing he needs to realize is that i am in his future. :-P or denis ikovlev. i really wish he was not playing basketball in ukraine anymore, he should be here in reno taking me out on dates and kissing me and making me feel amazing. haha. man oh man. talk about way out of my league?!
aanyway, i can't wait for mike to come up here. it'll be good to have him around.
i went to tim's jazz gig last week and zack (the bass player) said i was really hot...but he has a girlfriend. that made me smile (not the girlfriend part). and so did taylor but i got shy and didn't even talk to him. he was very very attractive. i was hoping i'd get to see him again this week, but i promised mike & aj that i'd have dinner at their place since they were cooking & they do that so rarely. hopefully the next thursday then.
lastly, i've decided i need to work on my confidence. all my guy friends say i have a great body, i get whistled at by guys on the street pretty much every time i open my window, i get offered to be bought drinks, i get complimented by strangers, so why am i not happy? why do i not see it? hopefully time and a different attitude will change this...
i have too much faith in people. friends tell me to stay away from people and i always decide no, i'll give them a chance. in every single instance that i've been given that sort of advice, they were right. so why do i keep giving people chances?
jason's been in vegas for what feels like forever & i don't see howard or darryl as much as before. it's weird.
nikki comes back on friday, so at least i'll have a roommate and a friend up here who doesn't have a penis.
it's been lonely here. i've been in my new apartment for almost a week and a half now and i haven't even met the roommate that supposedly lives upstairs.
also, there are way too many sirens here. it's quite disturbing. i hear sirens then go to my window and look out at sierra st only to find its just another ambulance. it really bothers me that that many people could be in trouble all the time. sure i understand that sometimes its precautionary, but its still crazy to think about.
dance starts back up in 6 days and i'm not ready for it. i've gotten lazy, but i guess that needs to change since school starts in 12 days.
i decided to start working out and stretching again to prepare for dance. i ran 3 miles and did 100 crunches. i also realized that i still have my left & middle splits. just the darn right side that needs to be worked on. i'd forgotten how much i hated working my arms. UGH! i'll just be glad when i see the definition i used to.
michael phelps is an amazing man. the only thing he needs to realize is that i am in his future. :-P or denis ikovlev. i really wish he was not playing basketball in ukraine anymore, he should be here in reno taking me out on dates and kissing me and making me feel amazing. haha. man oh man. talk about way out of my league?!
aanyway, i can't wait for mike to come up here. it'll be good to have him around.
i went to tim's jazz gig last week and zack (the bass player) said i was really hot...but he has a girlfriend. that made me smile (not the girlfriend part). and so did taylor but i got shy and didn't even talk to him. he was very very attractive. i was hoping i'd get to see him again this week, but i promised mike & aj that i'd have dinner at their place since they were cooking & they do that so rarely. hopefully the next thursday then.
lastly, i've decided i need to work on my confidence. all my guy friends say i have a great body, i get whistled at by guys on the street pretty much every time i open my window, i get offered to be bought drinks, i get complimented by strangers, so why am i not happy? why do i not see it? hopefully time and a different attitude will change this...