Between a rock and hard place.
So I am taking only 12credits this semester like a normal college student, but all of my classes are technical classes. This is a nightmare. So far I am three weeks into the semester and I am behind in all of my classes. Most of my waking hours are spent studying, and each week that passes I get farther and farther behind. Most days I question myself why I am doing this. Isn't college supposed to be fun? Am I not young, shouldn't I be out exploring the world and experiencing new things? No, not this life it seems. Work hard, and then work even harder again. This routine is getting old fast, and I do not even know how much longer I can even keep it up. If I drop a single course I loose my scholarship and I loose my ability to attend college. Everything is riding on this semester. Either I loose from wasting my youth with too much academia, or I loose with a failed future. Perhaps I can just run away and never look back...