(no subject)
So. its official. I'm lame. and yes...i've taken over Xanga.....ahhhhhh!!!!!!!! but.. in lack of being able to put anything on there..i'll just keep it on here. :) yaay. and daniel? this is me updating. bwhahaha. okay. so....heres my life:
I made trainer..that makes me very happy. I get more money, dont do much more work, and have gone through a little drama over it. ...a little is an understatement. Crying for 45 minutes one night...having to worry about someone being mad...dumb tall guys..anyway. but mainly? my focus has be blurred. this whole past sememster has just been a rough one. Trying to keep up with school, and work, and stressing out. I am the worst person in teh world about this. I stress out over stuff I shouldn't..and because i'm stressed out, i worry about being stressed out. Stupid ya know? To the point at times I can't breathe. I don't eat much because I usually dont have the time and I dont sleep much either. Up until the past week I haven't really dont anything in the regards of having a life. Though, that's been kinda crazy. I finally talked to my trucker, and nothing's changing between us, but i'm not waiting around for him. This, was needed along time ago. Now things are wonderful between us and i'm eternally grateful. On another note..the reason as to why me and my trucker finally talked was wonderfully new boy from Cali. :) Ahh..very nice to look at, very nice in general, trying to get his life to chase after God, but I don't know how serious he really is. *shrugs* but..i guess we're like...dating now. Or something. I talked to a friend of mine..and I'm apparently getting engaged in a few years..wow. yeah..that was an interesing conversation. The main thing on my mind right now is my cali boy. Its like..he was seeing this chick, they went on 2 dates, and then she blew him off. He met me, we went out, we get to this now, and then she shows up. the last 2 days she's sat w/ us and then today i see her waiting on him. I am so very afraid that I am right and he still likes her. there is a few problems with this though. mainly the one that he is not my boyfriend!!! and why should i be so worried about it if hes not? raar. i hate being a girl. and another thing? I hurt one of my friends...well..2 of them really. I dont want a relationship right now. I am casually dating the boy from cali like...every once in a while. but..i'm not sure if i'll even do that. ugh. we'll see. but...as for those in which i've hurt. I am truly sorry. I never meant to hurt you. Well this is me leaving now. I am off to hang out w/ my girly. Much love to all.
I made trainer..that makes me very happy. I get more money, dont do much more work, and have gone through a little drama over it. ...a little is an understatement. Crying for 45 minutes one night...having to worry about someone being mad...dumb tall guys..anyway. but mainly? my focus has be blurred. this whole past sememster has just been a rough one. Trying to keep up with school, and work, and stressing out. I am the worst person in teh world about this. I stress out over stuff I shouldn't..and because i'm stressed out, i worry about being stressed out. Stupid ya know? To the point at times I can't breathe. I don't eat much because I usually dont have the time and I dont sleep much either. Up until the past week I haven't really dont anything in the regards of having a life. Though, that's been kinda crazy. I finally talked to my trucker, and nothing's changing between us, but i'm not waiting around for him. This, was needed along time ago. Now things are wonderful between us and i'm eternally grateful. On another note..the reason as to why me and my trucker finally talked was wonderfully new boy from Cali. :) Ahh..very nice to look at, very nice in general, trying to get his life to chase after God, but I don't know how serious he really is. *shrugs* but..i guess we're like...dating now. Or something. I talked to a friend of mine..and I'm apparently getting engaged in a few years..wow. yeah..that was an interesing conversation. The main thing on my mind right now is my cali boy. Its like..he was seeing this chick, they went on 2 dates, and then she blew him off. He met me, we went out, we get to this now, and then she shows up. the last 2 days she's sat w/ us and then today i see her waiting on him. I am so very afraid that I am right and he still likes her. there is a few problems with this though. mainly the one that he is not my boyfriend!!! and why should i be so worried about it if hes not? raar. i hate being a girl. and another thing? I hurt one of my friends...well..2 of them really. I dont want a relationship right now. I am casually dating the boy from cali like...every once in a while. but..i'm not sure if i'll even do that. ugh. we'll see. but...as for those in which i've hurt. I am truly sorry. I never meant to hurt you. Well this is me leaving now. I am off to hang out w/ my girly. Much love to all.