waking up heartbroken...

[skitzjones]

I had quite possibly the worst dream I've ever had, and I just woke up from it ten mins ago.  I want to write about it here and now while it's still confronting me, before the distractions of the day erase the details and just leave me with the sence of it.

Every child I saw and treated/transported in Iraq met me face to face last night.  This has

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[prodigal7599]

I felt this in the pit of my stomach. As I read, I could almost see your hands shaking as you typed it and your breathing quick and short and I wanted to do something. Anything. But I obviously can't. I'm a stranger to you, although I have read your blog. But please know this, I have not been to war nor do I even pretend to remotely understand your experiences because to try to do so would demean you and your memories, but all I can offer is that I have experienced the pain of regret and wondering what else I could have done to make things better or different. And although, I wake up with the same sense of failing you have to know that what you did made a difference. Your presence was felt and you may never know how decisions to you seemed wrong or pointless could have been the difference of life and death to someone you will never know. Life is a puzzle piece. You will never be able to tell what the puzzle is of just looking at one piece, or even where that piece fits. But eventually all the pieces fit together. Stand