it begins, always small and beating at my brow..
so she awakes.
i have beena rather busy little pixie lately. cant remember what i was up to the last time i posted. i dont think i'd been for my VCA audition, which i will say went terribly badly. but im over it already. in fact, i was over it when it happened. i couldnt wait to get out and enjoy the Melbourne sunshine. Shop and see some art and spend time with Zevvy.
you know, it's weird. i think im finally learning to let go and grow up and realise it doesnt fucking matter WHAT i do with my luife, as long as im around the people i love and dont compromise my beliefs in the process of doing whatever im doing.
i got pre accepted to the University of Wollongongs Bachelor or Creative Arts (creative writing) straight after my interview which isnt granted to everyone. i was stoked. because even though i was reaaally considering the move there, after going to the campus and chekcing out all the stuff and people.. i was hooked. it's an amazing place and i managed to meet two really amazing people in the couple of hours i was there.
so now i was faced with a dilema. do i study this year a course im not garranteed to get accepted into again next year if i defer, or do i follow my dream and move to melb with beca dn try my luck in the theatre world down there???
kai said something that struck hard "what would we do without you in theatre lara?" and she's right. it wouldnt be the same. I wouldnt be the same. but can i just forget that part of me???? i dont kow. sometimes i think iu could just leave that behind and be somehting completely different........
i dont know.
i took a holoiday to the coast with polly and kai.. we drove 660 kilometers in 3 days.. it was great. sun. sand. surf. mmmmmmm.. and then the day after i got back Bec, who was in the Bay said i should come and stay, and i just up and left... a 3 day holiday turned into 3 weeks.. im SO lucky i didnt get fired. dad is right. im fortunate that my bosses are nice people and actually like me. in fact, im opening tomorrow morn, i have the key and security code and everything. im slightly nervous.. but im sure it'll all be fine, as long as my back holds out.. injured that when fabes and bec and i were camping at Longbeach.. arrrrh we had the perfect little retreat up in this forest, in a cave made from cliffs and tress. it was amazing.
i worked on christmas and spent new years on the beach with some people from canberra who came down. yen, seb, ike, jess, nalin, john and pete. and fuck. Zev came to the coast, for me. after all my stressing that he didnt want to spend time with me while he was in canberra, he travelled 2 hours for me. i love him. and i dont hate that fact anymore. i can deal with it. i mean, who wouldnt love him?? i cant help it. he's intoxicating...
i died my hair black for the formal.. well, blue black.. and i went as the angel of death with black wings and black sleevs that draped to the ground around my snow white dress with spikey black netting poking out of the jagged bottom edge. like seriously. i looked HOT.
finnaly got school out of the way. didnt do nearly as badly as i thought. on graduation day we all got our results in the morning and i down right refused to look at mine, cos i knew they'd suck cos i'd "slacked off" towards the end. well.. i had alot on my little saucer. so we're having coffee in the city, Bethy and Fabe and me.. and i see yen and he's like all "so what'd ya get?" etc etc and im all "i aint tellin" and then he made me let him look and i said only if he made no reaction so i was none the wiser to my score.. and i come out of the cafe and he's like "no, lara, i HAVE to show you this. sorry. it's just too good not to" so i looked and i nearly fell over in shock.. 87.45!!!!!! and i think i'd cried about it earlier. i mean, think if i'd actually done some work these past two years?? haha..
jfkjafajf
eva is moving away. sydney. for arts at uni. im glad she's finally sorted out her drug problem and her life. but fuck im going to miss that kid. =\
i have beena rather busy little pixie lately. cant remember what i was up to the last time i posted. i dont think i'd been for my VCA audition, which i will say went terribly badly. but im over it already. in fact, i was over it when it happened. i couldnt wait to get out and enjoy the Melbourne sunshine. Shop and see some art and spend time with Zevvy.
you know, it's weird. i think im finally learning to let go and grow up and realise it doesnt fucking matter WHAT i do with my luife, as long as im around the people i love and dont compromise my beliefs in the process of doing whatever im doing.
i got pre accepted to the University of Wollongongs Bachelor or Creative Arts (creative writing) straight after my interview which isnt granted to everyone. i was stoked. because even though i was reaaally considering the move there, after going to the campus and chekcing out all the stuff and people.. i was hooked. it's an amazing place and i managed to meet two really amazing people in the couple of hours i was there.
so now i was faced with a dilema. do i study this year a course im not garranteed to get accepted into again next year if i defer, or do i follow my dream and move to melb with beca dn try my luck in the theatre world down there???
kai said something that struck hard "what would we do without you in theatre lara?" and she's right. it wouldnt be the same. I wouldnt be the same. but can i just forget that part of me???? i dont kow. sometimes i think iu could just leave that behind and be somehting completely different........
i dont know.
i took a holoiday to the coast with polly and kai.. we drove 660 kilometers in 3 days.. it was great. sun. sand. surf. mmmmmmm.. and then the day after i got back Bec, who was in the Bay said i should come and stay, and i just up and left... a 3 day holiday turned into 3 weeks.. im SO lucky i didnt get fired. dad is right. im fortunate that my bosses are nice people and actually like me. in fact, im opening tomorrow morn, i have the key and security code and everything. im slightly nervous.. but im sure it'll all be fine, as long as my back holds out.. injured that when fabes and bec and i were camping at Longbeach.. arrrrh we had the perfect little retreat up in this forest, in a cave made from cliffs and tress. it was amazing.
i worked on christmas and spent new years on the beach with some people from canberra who came down. yen, seb, ike, jess, nalin, john and pete. and fuck. Zev came to the coast, for me. after all my stressing that he didnt want to spend time with me while he was in canberra, he travelled 2 hours for me. i love him. and i dont hate that fact anymore. i can deal with it. i mean, who wouldnt love him?? i cant help it. he's intoxicating...
i died my hair black for the formal.. well, blue black.. and i went as the angel of death with black wings and black sleevs that draped to the ground around my snow white dress with spikey black netting poking out of the jagged bottom edge. like seriously. i looked HOT.
finnaly got school out of the way. didnt do nearly as badly as i thought. on graduation day we all got our results in the morning and i down right refused to look at mine, cos i knew they'd suck cos i'd "slacked off" towards the end. well.. i had alot on my little saucer. so we're having coffee in the city, Bethy and Fabe and me.. and i see yen and he's like all "so what'd ya get?" etc etc and im all "i aint tellin" and then he made me let him look and i said only if he made no reaction so i was none the wiser to my score.. and i come out of the cafe and he's like "no, lara, i HAVE to show you this. sorry. it's just too good not to" so i looked and i nearly fell over in shock.. 87.45!!!!!! and i think i'd cried about it earlier. i mean, think if i'd actually done some work these past two years?? haha..
jfkjafajf
eva is moving away. sydney. for arts at uni. im glad she's finally sorted out her drug problem and her life. but fuck im going to miss that kid. =\