Yeah..

[skitz0phrenik]

I woke up in a really good mood this morning.. at about 9:30.. and of course my mothers first task of the day was to ruin it. Yesterday she told me she'd take me to fill out applications today, early in the morning while managers were there. I told her yesterday to just take me to get applications and I'd turn them in this morning while the managers where there, because I knew she wouldn't get up. She don't care if I sit here for the rest of my life being a loser. And, I go in there a few minutes ago and I was like "G'mornin' Mommy!" and she snored. And I was all "mom, are you gonna wake up and take me to go get applications while it's still early?" and she fuckin' blew a gasket.. "LET ME GET SOME FUCKING SLEEP, JENNIFER!" .. okay, it's not my fault that she didn't go to bed at an appropriate time. She always trys to blame it on me, but, I'm always in bed before she is. So, needless to say, I'm probably not going to find anything today. I can't depend on her for anything and I hate that. She's suppose to support me and try to help me the best she can when I'm in need. I always do that for her. But, yeah. Fuck it, what else can I do? I've tried. I so feel like just giving up on everything and letting her control me and every move I make for the rest of my life. But, when I get on the verdge I just listen to this song and it gives me a little more peace of mind and keeps me from doing something stupid.. like giving in to her.

I so <3 Good Charlotte.