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loss of appetite
loss of sleep
loss of ambition
loss of concentration
i called him last night. he didn't answer.
i dont know what to do with myself. i've been occupying my mind as much as possible and acting like nothing happened. now i understand why people get wasted when they go through a tough time. i do not want to be in a sober state of mind right now. thank god for appointment tomorrow.
Its the first time I ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
Its funny when you think its gonna work out
Til you chose weed coke over me, you're so lame
I thought you were cool until the point
Up until the point you didnt call me
When you said you would
I finally figured out youre all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story
Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't
Youre too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm asking for?
I thought you'd come around when I ignored you
So I thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning
'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here
Can't find where i am
Lying here
Alone I fear
Afraid of the dark
No one to claim
Alone again
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I write to you from hell my song, leaving the foot against the gas
And the wall that must have said your name
Weaken me, for nothing you can say can stop this now
Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now can a song replace broken love?
No
On the beach, I remind myself
That holding hands is so powerless
Tonight, I don't even have the stars
To hold onto
Paint this red
Her picture will remain unbroken, she cries tonight,
"I fall in love"
Wipe each tear away
With sandpaper
Tonight, I'm not alone
And I just wanna get your fucking voice out of my head
(**note: i was on the beach, staring up at the stars while singing this song in my head, except i thought it said "...but holding in is so powerless..."**)
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I'll leave the lights down low
so she knows I mean business
And maybe we could talk this over
Cause I could be your best bet
Let alone your worst ex
And let alone your worst...
I wanna hate you so bad
But I can't stop this
anymore than you can
So honestly, how could you say those things
when you know they don't mean anything
And you know very well
that I can't keep my hands to myself
This is all wrong and it shows
There's certain things I promised not to let you know,
I've got a silly way of keepin you up on the edge of my seat
You've got this silly way
of keeping me on the edge of my seat
But you're only counting the clock against the train
And I'm miserable, oh
And you're just getting started
You've got me right where you want me
let's never talk about this again because
I didn't want it to mean that much to me
loss of sleep
loss of ambition
loss of concentration
i called him last night. he didn't answer.
i dont know what to do with myself. i've been occupying my mind as much as possible and acting like nothing happened. now i understand why people get wasted when they go through a tough time. i do not want to be in a sober state of mind right now. thank god for appointment tomorrow.
Its the first time I ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
Its funny when you think its gonna work out
Til you chose weed coke over me, you're so lame
I thought you were cool until the point
Up until the point you didnt call me
When you said you would
I finally figured out youre all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story
Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't
Youre too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm asking for?
I thought you'd come around when I ignored you
So I thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning
'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here
Can't find where i am
Lying here
Alone I fear
Afraid of the dark
No one to claim
Alone again
------------
I write to you from hell my song, leaving the foot against the gas
And the wall that must have said your name
Weaken me, for nothing you can say can stop this now
Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now can a song replace broken love?
No
On the beach, I remind myself
That holding hands is so powerless
Tonight, I don't even have the stars
To hold onto
Paint this red
Her picture will remain unbroken, she cries tonight,
"I fall in love"
Wipe each tear away
With sandpaper
Tonight, I'm not alone
And I just wanna get your fucking voice out of my head
(**note: i was on the beach, staring up at the stars while singing this song in my head, except i thought it said "...but holding in is so powerless..."**)
---------
I'll leave the lights down low
so she knows I mean business
And maybe we could talk this over
Cause I could be your best bet
Let alone your worst ex
And let alone your worst...
I wanna hate you so bad
But I can't stop this
anymore than you can
So honestly, how could you say those things
when you know they don't mean anything
And you know very well
that I can't keep my hands to myself
This is all wrong and it shows
There's certain things I promised not to let you know,
I've got a silly way of keepin you up on the edge of my seat
You've got this silly way
of keeping me on the edge of my seat
But you're only counting the clock against the train
And I'm miserable, oh
And you're just getting started
You've got me right where you want me
let's never talk about this again because
I didn't want it to mean that much to me