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hey, omg i cant belive i havent written in a long time, lots has happened, like my ex called me and we talked and he told me amanda gave him a hand job and how he felt about her and read me poems he wrote for her and i was like yea thats cool and this guy kept calling me and asking me out and i told him about me n my friend streaking incident lol so then all of a sudden he was like you never sent me a nudie pic and i was like i know and hes like your whole town has seen you nakie and i havent and i was like no they havent!!!! and then i was telling him how i got in trouble and he was all awww my little rebel???? umm ok we broke up though!!! and theni said something about you courtney and he was all she was my friend first and i was like i know and he said your trying to steal her from me and i was like no im not!! but i wuv her :P lol, i told him i sent courtney a pic of me and after he was like wanna go out again? and im like ok and i was pschyed but then he talked about how much he liked amanda again :'( and he was like dont tell anyone were going out again ....umm ok and he was all ive changed alot since we broke up (wich was like what two weeks????) ok and when we were talking i noticed he has changed alot, i dunno hes harder and he said himself he doesnt feel or care anymore and its wierd....talking to him i mean i dont know what he wanta or if he loves me or anything anymoreim going to go crazy i dont know what anyone wants or means anymore im co lost and its making me go mad!!! and ive gotten into old habits that i shouldnt be doing.....i dont know whats wrong with me i dont wanna deal with anything i guess that why i do it i dunno old habits die hard i hate doing it but i dont know i need some help and my friends help too, abby your the only reason i stopped last time cuz you helped me