the nights are long
Today I didn't even get out of bed until 4:30....rediculous right??? I did get up and went long boarding with shay and Alex, that helped get me out of my room. I think tonight we are going to watch a movie in the Madrone lobby. I don't know why Im having such a hard time right now... it just gets to me. I feel so rejected..... I realize now that I don't have anyone to protect me anymore and that I have to be more cautious about where I am and what I'm doing. Its crazy how I was so used to feeling safe and protected and now in my current situation I know that I need to be way more cautious. Maybe thats why I am in even more pain. not only is a part of me missing but I have no one to protect me... Im alone.