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yay, there is a post from KMUN, that honestly made my day, not that i can see anything right now to read it. but its there, although it took me a minute b/c her icon is different, i must say, i miss Joe. its wierd not talking to him, & we're terrible about not talking to him in disney. but i can't help it, he's my secret friend, that Kmun knows, but thats okay, b/c now we're realllly good friends b/c of him. i love it.
so yar, disney was insane, attempting at minimal drama, i think it went well. i was okay, i miss it like crazy. i dont know what else i have to say.
i need to figure out this relationship thing, we keep slighlty crossing the line of being more then just friends, but idk if it means anything or not. its really confusing because there is no one else in the world that i would rather be with, but i doubt you feel the same way. if you do that would be awesome, but i'd feel so dumb for keeping my feelings a secret for 4 years now.. but i'd be okay with that, as long as i knew we'd be together for this year, but i know that isn't gonna happen, there are too many strings attached to you, which is redonk. i can't stand it, it makes me insanely jealous, and i dont know why it does. well i really do, its cuz i kno no one cares about you the way i do, and no matter how much of an asshole you are to me, i keep coming back, which again, i have absolutely no control over, my mind says NO and my heart says 4 years and going...
ohh yeah, thanksgiving was a blast, i love attempting to be cheery, when there is NOTHING that can make you happy. Honestly, how do you want me to be happy, when you informed me that you put my dog to sleep while i was in disney world. that honestly COMPLETELY ruined my trip, but hey. that doesnt matter.
well exhaustion is kickign in, & i get to see my emily jane tomorrow. so i need to rest up !!
so yar, disney was insane, attempting at minimal drama, i think it went well. i was okay, i miss it like crazy. i dont know what else i have to say.
i need to figure out this relationship thing, we keep slighlty crossing the line of being more then just friends, but idk if it means anything or not. its really confusing because there is no one else in the world that i would rather be with, but i doubt you feel the same way. if you do that would be awesome, but i'd feel so dumb for keeping my feelings a secret for 4 years now.. but i'd be okay with that, as long as i knew we'd be together for this year, but i know that isn't gonna happen, there are too many strings attached to you, which is redonk. i can't stand it, it makes me insanely jealous, and i dont know why it does. well i really do, its cuz i kno no one cares about you the way i do, and no matter how much of an asshole you are to me, i keep coming back, which again, i have absolutely no control over, my mind says NO and my heart says 4 years and going...
ohh yeah, thanksgiving was a blast, i love attempting to be cheery, when there is NOTHING that can make you happy. Honestly, how do you want me to be happy, when you informed me that you put my dog to sleep while i was in disney world. that honestly COMPLETELY ruined my trip, but hey. that doesnt matter.
well exhaustion is kickign in, & i get to see my emily jane tomorrow. so i need to rest up !!