blah........ sad
things are stupid... im stupid. i took the wrong bus to go to my interview, and i felt like an ass going in there even though i was 45 minutes late... i hate crying... and being sad. i think im just tired. i barely sleep. i never get my fucking homework done. i dont want to work at alycia's anymore, im getting frustrated. i dont know how breeann does it. going to work, and getting all her homework done?! and she has two fucking jobs...!!! i dont understand... i really think i have adhd. i dont know whats wrong with me, i can never concentrate....
i hate being late for school, casue i never have time to eat, and im losing weight rapidly... and i never have time to eat... i hate bothering ppl to come with me to go buy food, and i never have money to buy food. GAwd i make my self angry. i never have time to myself! i hate it.
i want to hang out with fonze more, but cant. it frustrates me.... and i hate it. i garentee im failing all of my classes....report cards come out soon, and i havent finished any major assignments. eventhough i want to catch up, i cant because i feel so useless, like i cant get anything done, or done right. i dont know, i dont know. i hate being a stupid teenager... i hate being stupid... i hate it , i hate it. i hate that my friends are fighting, i hate how there isnt enough time in a day. i hate how i have no time to play guitar anymore. i hate how i have no time to draw (how i used to). i hate how i never have time to listen to music (how i want to listen to it).i hate how i look, becasue ive lost so much weight (i look discusting). i hate my hair, it never goes the way i want it to go (i have no styling ability). i hate how i dont have time to see me frineds (breeann, halden, nealon, chance, shawn). i hate how i have no time to see my family (my nephews). i hate how i never have enough money. i hate everything right now. and im frustrated. i hate everything. please die alitle bit. im lame for even saying this shit.
oh welll whatever nevermind. ignore everything please.
i hate being late for school, casue i never have time to eat, and im losing weight rapidly... and i never have time to eat... i hate bothering ppl to come with me to go buy food, and i never have money to buy food. GAwd i make my self angry. i never have time to myself! i hate it.
i want to hang out with fonze more, but cant. it frustrates me.... and i hate it. i garentee im failing all of my classes....report cards come out soon, and i havent finished any major assignments. eventhough i want to catch up, i cant because i feel so useless, like i cant get anything done, or done right. i dont know, i dont know. i hate being a stupid teenager... i hate being stupid... i hate it , i hate it. i hate that my friends are fighting, i hate how there isnt enough time in a day. i hate how i have no time to play guitar anymore. i hate how i have no time to draw (how i used to). i hate how i never have time to listen to music (how i want to listen to it).i hate how i look, becasue ive lost so much weight (i look discusting). i hate my hair, it never goes the way i want it to go (i have no styling ability). i hate how i dont have time to see me frineds (breeann, halden, nealon, chance, shawn). i hate how i have no time to see my family (my nephews). i hate how i never have enough money. i hate everything right now. and im frustrated. i hate everything. please die alitle bit. im lame for even saying this shit.
oh welll whatever nevermind. ignore everything please.