Forgiveness dream
Maybe its because ive been preparing to finally finish my temple space to the 21 taras... i don't know... i just know i had a beautiful forgivess dream that i want to share here.
a lovely dream
Just had an epiphany forgiveness dream. Yesterday I had sent an email to a person who raped me that I met here and betrayed my trust. I sent him an email saying simply " I forgive you." In this dream I had forgiven my most recent ex (buddha) who apparently had a new girlfriend who was Japanese and beautiful and matched his beautiful soul. In this dream we were talking about how we still cared about each other. It was a nice dream and I woke up smiling.
It's amazing. I feel proud of myself and even ready to forgive the one who betrayed me the worst... my first love. ❤ . I doubt he'd respond positively if I sent him a simple email of forgiveness. In fact he probably would get angry if I sent him the email I want to. But in my mind/body/spirit connection I send him my forgiveness.... because I know in my heart that he's only doing the best that he can. Despite the revenge porn where he tried to destroy my relationship with my father because he doesn't understand a pure loving father child relationship and how it can't be ruined by revenge porn. He never had that kind of fatherly or motherly love.... so how could he possibly understand? 🤔.
I forgive you too for not telling me about the underlying core of deep seated resentment you had for me when we reconnected. If I hadn't been so naive I would have realized it was there. I hurt you by ending things when I realized that we weren't a good fit. I forgive myself for even trying to reconnect with you in the hopes of rekindling my youthful innocence with you. It didn't work. WE didn't work for so many reasons.
I wish for you to have a happier life in your next life. May you be the beautiful soul that you could have been without the abusive parents. I wish for you to find the inner sense of joy and compassion to forgive your younger brothers for not being abused like you were. I wish you the love you always deserved .
I forgive you.
Extra note: i decided to send my first love a note of simple forgiveness and made sure it was clear i didn’t expect anything back. Hopefully it will positively affect him.
a lovely dream
Just had an epiphany forgiveness dream. Yesterday I had sent an email to a person who raped me that I met here and betrayed my trust. I sent him an email saying simply " I forgive you." In this dream I had forgiven my most recent ex (buddha) who apparently had a new girlfriend who was Japanese and beautiful and matched his beautiful soul. In this dream we were talking about how we still cared about each other. It was a nice dream and I woke up smiling.
It's amazing. I feel proud of myself and even ready to forgive the one who betrayed me the worst... my first love. ❤ . I doubt he'd respond positively if I sent him a simple email of forgiveness. In fact he probably would get angry if I sent him the email I want to. But in my mind/body/spirit connection I send him my forgiveness.... because I know in my heart that he's only doing the best that he can. Despite the revenge porn where he tried to destroy my relationship with my father because he doesn't understand a pure loving father child relationship and how it can't be ruined by revenge porn. He never had that kind of fatherly or motherly love.... so how could he possibly understand? 🤔.
I forgive you too for not telling me about the underlying core of deep seated resentment you had for me when we reconnected. If I hadn't been so naive I would have realized it was there. I hurt you by ending things when I realized that we weren't a good fit. I forgive myself for even trying to reconnect with you in the hopes of rekindling my youthful innocence with you. It didn't work. WE didn't work for so many reasons.
I wish for you to have a happier life in your next life. May you be the beautiful soul that you could have been without the abusive parents. I wish for you to find the inner sense of joy and compassion to forgive your younger brothers for not being abused like you were. I wish you the love you always deserved .
I forgive you.
Extra note: i decided to send my first love a note of simple forgiveness and made sure it was clear i didn’t expect anything back. Hopefully it will positively affect him.