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lately i feel like everyone has very high expectations of me, and i really can't live up to them.
i am supposed to be the perfect student and the perfect friend. i am neither. i am not as smart as everyone thinks i am, and i am far from a perfect friend. i'm expected to be kind and understanding and give good advice (which i try to do), but i also have to be easygoing and easy to make fun of. i'm supposed to deal with everybody's crap and be fine, but i am not allowed to dole out any of said crap. if anyone says or does something wrong to me, i am expected to just deal with it. if i do or say anything wrong (hmm, maybe because i am incredibly stressed out), then i need to work on fixing my personality.
i'm sick of trying to be perfect.
i'm sick of being told i'm not good enough.
and i am sick of this stupid fucking headache.
i am supposed to be the perfect student and the perfect friend. i am neither. i am not as smart as everyone thinks i am, and i am far from a perfect friend. i'm expected to be kind and understanding and give good advice (which i try to do), but i also have to be easygoing and easy to make fun of. i'm supposed to deal with everybody's crap and be fine, but i am not allowed to dole out any of said crap. if anyone says or does something wrong to me, i am expected to just deal with it. if i do or say anything wrong (hmm, maybe because i am incredibly stressed out), then i need to work on fixing my personality.
i'm sick of trying to be perfect.
i'm sick of being told i'm not good enough.
and i am sick of this stupid fucking headache.