Feelings are burning...
*You have to wonder if there is something wrong when your dad is having a dinner party and they are listening to the Dandy Warhols, and your hiding in your room listening to elton john.
Tomorrow, is the start of everything. Mixed emotions, joy-love-fear-nervousness all mushed together in a blended gooooo. For the last 12 months I have hid, with my one mix c.d, which holds a certain Whitlams song. Tears flow everytime i hear it, for hours sometimes.
Tomorrow it will all be irrelavant. Something in the past, but I don't want to let it go. I'm scared that it will be different, not like all of the phone calls, not like before he left, not like i thought it would be. I feel like the worst sister in the world, my whole family is glowing, so exited, and i ruin it. Why do I have to feel this way?