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I'm really happy. Dan and I have been talking for 2 months now. We're still nothing official, but sometimes I get the feeling that will change. I know some people are like how can you stand that? I think it's because we have this mutual understanding of each other. I mean, he's a great guy and he's so good to me. I've never in my life had someone treat me the way he does. I feel wanted all the time.. he tells me how much he cares about me.. and he's ever so patient with me. The other night for whatever reason I was pissed off for absolutely no reason and took it out on him. I'm very rarely in a bad mood and ever rarer do I take it out on people. But I did.. and he never once lashed out at me. He was very calm and finally was like "Erika, I think you need some sleep. I know something is wrong because you don't normally act this way, but you're not opening up to me so I don't know what to tell you or what to do. How about you sleep on it?" So then of course I start crying because he's being so sweet to me and I was being such a bitch. He's like talk to me, I hate that I can't be there to hold you, to make you feel better... I seriously don't know what I did to deserve him.
I heart him, that's for sure. I'm falling in love with him, and told him just as much tonight. He feels the same.. I'm still cautious, I guess because what was done to me before.. so I'm still hesitant.. but I'm sure that feeling will fade with time.
I deleted a bunch of old e-mails tonight.. mostly from the Bryce era.. they were mostly all the bad ones from right around the time we broke up and beyond.. even ones I had saved when I originally thought, I better save these just in case I get accused of anything since she didn't know we had started talking again. I deleted everything.. of course I re-read them first.. and I couldn't believe how much drama I had been going through.. he had me in fights with him, with her, with our friends, even my own family. Blessing in disguise.. his cheating on me...
::sigh:: I'm gonna go dream about Danny.. lol ;)
I heart him, that's for sure. I'm falling in love with him, and told him just as much tonight. He feels the same.. I'm still cautious, I guess because what was done to me before.. so I'm still hesitant.. but I'm sure that feeling will fade with time.
I deleted a bunch of old e-mails tonight.. mostly from the Bryce era.. they were mostly all the bad ones from right around the time we broke up and beyond.. even ones I had saved when I originally thought, I better save these just in case I get accused of anything since she didn't know we had started talking again. I deleted everything.. of course I re-read them first.. and I couldn't believe how much drama I had been going through.. he had me in fights with him, with her, with our friends, even my own family. Blessing in disguise.. his cheating on me...
::sigh:: I'm gonna go dream about Danny.. lol ;)