Reflection on reflecting...
Lately, I've realised that I don't use my LJ as much as I used to... I suppose in some ways this is good and in some ways this is bad.
I know I've become more judicious about how I use my LJ (I no longer spam people's friends' lists with lots of inane quizzes and surveys - or if I do, I put them under a cut, to "give other people a chance at the Internet"), but I've also become more guarded with what I say. There used to be a time when I would rant and ramble any old thing in here, regardless of who might read it, or what they might think. Have I grown to censor myself? Or have I realised that I can rant and ramble to specific people about specific things over e-mail with fewer fears of repercussions or drama? Maybe a little bit of both.
It seems that right now I do most of my work ramblings on SparkPeople in one of my teams, over e-mail with my best friend, or face-to-face with Ray (who really gets every story at least twice - poor dear, how can he stand it?)... for some reasons this is for my own protection... if I accidentally forget to lock a post and someone reads something potentially inflammatory... well, we all know how that could go, or how it has gone for some of us... for others, it's just apathy. I know that Katrina and Ray care about what I have to say and will respond to my most insipid problems, but who knows who else would? Sometimes I feel that I pour my heart and soul out in a post, and then to get no response, well, it's crushing. I know that it's life and all that jazz, but it still hurts.
I also seem to have become busier, with less time to post in my LJ - my Internet time is stretched between: email (hotmail and gmail), SparkPeople, FaceBook (the great sucker of time!), MySpace (not so much anymore...), webcomics, the Epoch boards and LJ (which I always read and try to comment on). I just never seem to get around to posting or reflecting much. The same goes for my SparkPeople Blog right now... It's been about a month since I updated it, which I really need to remedy... but I've also started spending more quality time with my husband (Pshaw, who'd wanna do that, right?), so instead of taking time every evening on LJ or whatnot, I'm taking time to talk to my husband and do things with him... Or I'm chatting on MSN/ICQ/AIM with other people, so I'm not really focused on my blogging.
It seems the only time I have to seriously devote to blogging is when I'm at work, and my breaks are short (15 min), so I don't really have the time to always produce a quality blog in that time without saving it and continuing it later... case in point this post, which I started on my lunch and continued during my afternoon break.
There may be a work rant coming thought... but I'll have to see how the night goes. Ray and I are going shopping for material for mana and for pants for him tonight, and House is on tonight, so I may not be able to blog.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is: I'll post when I post... If you don't hear from me, I'm probably not dead, just not in a blogging mood or timeframe or headspace. I try to comment as much as possible, but I may miss things.
I'm not dead yet...
I know I've become more judicious about how I use my LJ (I no longer spam people's friends' lists with lots of inane quizzes and surveys - or if I do, I put them under a cut, to "give other people a chance at the Internet"), but I've also become more guarded with what I say. There used to be a time when I would rant and ramble any old thing in here, regardless of who might read it, or what they might think. Have I grown to censor myself? Or have I realised that I can rant and ramble to specific people about specific things over e-mail with fewer fears of repercussions or drama? Maybe a little bit of both.
It seems that right now I do most of my work ramblings on SparkPeople in one of my teams, over e-mail with my best friend, or face-to-face with Ray (who really gets every story at least twice - poor dear, how can he stand it?)... for some reasons this is for my own protection... if I accidentally forget to lock a post and someone reads something potentially inflammatory... well, we all know how that could go, or how it has gone for some of us... for others, it's just apathy. I know that Katrina and Ray care about what I have to say and will respond to my most insipid problems, but who knows who else would? Sometimes I feel that I pour my heart and soul out in a post, and then to get no response, well, it's crushing. I know that it's life and all that jazz, but it still hurts.
I also seem to have become busier, with less time to post in my LJ - my Internet time is stretched between: email (hotmail and gmail), SparkPeople, FaceBook (the great sucker of time!), MySpace (not so much anymore...), webcomics, the Epoch boards and LJ (which I always read and try to comment on). I just never seem to get around to posting or reflecting much. The same goes for my SparkPeople Blog right now... It's been about a month since I updated it, which I really need to remedy... but I've also started spending more quality time with my husband (Pshaw, who'd wanna do that, right?), so instead of taking time every evening on LJ or whatnot, I'm taking time to talk to my husband and do things with him... Or I'm chatting on MSN/ICQ/AIM with other people, so I'm not really focused on my blogging.
It seems the only time I have to seriously devote to blogging is when I'm at work, and my breaks are short (15 min), so I don't really have the time to always produce a quality blog in that time without saving it and continuing it later... case in point this post, which I started on my lunch and continued during my afternoon break.
There may be a work rant coming thought... but I'll have to see how the night goes. Ray and I are going shopping for material for mana and for pants for him tonight, and House is on tonight, so I may not be able to blog.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is: I'll post when I post... If you don't hear from me, I'm probably not dead, just not in a blogging mood or timeframe or headspace. I try to comment as much as possible, but I may miss things.
I'm not dead yet...