ugh emo rant time

[skipbeatgirl]

yes so if u dont want to listen GET THE FUCK OUT  I DONT GIVE A DAMN*chough* ok moving on

ugh ok this has to do with no one or none of my friends

this has been on my chest for several months and soon to be close to a year and it hurts so i might as well say it and if i bring ur day down im sorry and i didnt mean too and im fine  just i dont want to keep it to myself any longer since it aches

so some of you know cassie right

my ex that sqrwed me over with michi and she was my first relationship what so ever and  yes i am little mad bout that with michi

well whats been bothring me that ........well

im still in love with her for the mother of god i am crying trying to write this

i miss her warm hugs

i miss her smiling at me when ever she could come to see me

i miss her making me feel safe

i miss her loving me and keeping me happy

i miss her personality

i miss admiring her

i just miss everything

she was my anchor, my angel and a lover

in otherwords i still fucking love her

i just wish i could rewind time

but i cant

im am afraid

im not brave to ask her

i am not strong

i hate  myself

i want to apolgize to everyone that i may have hurt of confused. Val i am sorry for everything. Danica same thing. I was hurt so bad i thought i could try to love someone else to take that ache away. so im just sorry for it. Im am stupid i know that.

i just wished it never happend

and sorry bout this rant

im fine

just little emotional and i needed to say something

and this is nothing to do with anyone so no one is to blame