summer, the best time of the year
Sorry, broke my promise of posting more, but I’ll continue now since school's done with.
Actually, I shouldn't blame it on school, because I've had all the time in the world. Really, I just don’t have anything to say. I'm in that point right now where if you ask "how are you Josh?" I'd probably answer, "I’m alright", but in my head I don’t even really know. So I’m weird, but hey, DEAL WITH IT SUCKA. It's not just 'how am I doing' that I question, but the 'who am I right now' also. Honestly, ever since I put down the bible, and hit the schoolbooks, I’ve felt a little *numb*(don't know how to describe it). Life's been 'alright', my relationship with my family and friends have been 'alright', and my relationship with God has been 'alright', but I know everything CAN and SHOULD be 'great'. That exact point when I became like this? Probably when I stopped acting on my commitment to God, because a commitment without action is dead and that's pretty much how I feel.
Finally, I like this one thing my friend my friend wrote in his journal. It goes something like "You know how guys say that the best way to know a girl is through their best friend? Well right now, I'm just waiting, getting to know [her] Best Friend on a more personal level now, and I’m learning more about [her] everyday. In other words, I'm putting off my desires for wanting [her] to 'be with me' right now and I’m learning so much more about her through God, and just simply hearing what He's done in her life is changing me. I can't believe I’ve put God off for so long. But now the old's gone and I’ve been made new... and so the story begins here." It always makes me smile when I see a friend grow deeper in Christ.
Some things that need changing during the summer:
1) getting all this poo poo out of my head and focusing on what's important
2) open myself up to meeting new people, sharing about faith in God, and getting to know more about my Brothers and Sisters in Christ
3) get in the Good Book, and center myself around God again
4) mature (cuz I’m just a boy)
It's times like these that are hard to endure, but it's also times like these when you're given the greatest opportunities to change yourself for the better.
On a lighter note I guess. I'm looking forward to going to China for the first time in my life! Leaving this Sunday!! Going to miss the camping, and the bowling/fellowship with fellow lyfers though BUMMER. After China, I got the lacrosse camps, and the summer workouts with the best sports team I’ve ever been on (I love those buff lacrosse guys) to look forward to, basketball league, and hopefully getting to write up some songs and record it with some 'talented musicians' in someone’s basement. One thing I didn't mention, that i know is going to be the highlight of my summer is YUGO. I've been waiting to go on YUGO for 3ish years now, and finally, I get to go and experience hands on, service for God, and get a glimpse on whether this kind of ministry lies in my future. Anything I forgot to mention just let me know, like hanging out with some certain friends, you know!
Actually, I shouldn't blame it on school, because I've had all the time in the world. Really, I just don’t have anything to say. I'm in that point right now where if you ask "how are you Josh?" I'd probably answer, "I’m alright", but in my head I don’t even really know. So I’m weird, but hey, DEAL WITH IT SUCKA. It's not just 'how am I doing' that I question, but the 'who am I right now' also. Honestly, ever since I put down the bible, and hit the schoolbooks, I’ve felt a little *numb*(don't know how to describe it). Life's been 'alright', my relationship with my family and friends have been 'alright', and my relationship with God has been 'alright', but I know everything CAN and SHOULD be 'great'. That exact point when I became like this? Probably when I stopped acting on my commitment to God, because a commitment without action is dead and that's pretty much how I feel.
Finally, I like this one thing my friend my friend wrote in his journal. It goes something like "You know how guys say that the best way to know a girl is through their best friend? Well right now, I'm just waiting, getting to know [her] Best Friend on a more personal level now, and I’m learning more about [her] everyday. In other words, I'm putting off my desires for wanting [her] to 'be with me' right now and I’m learning so much more about her through God, and just simply hearing what He's done in her life is changing me. I can't believe I’ve put God off for so long. But now the old's gone and I’ve been made new... and so the story begins here." It always makes me smile when I see a friend grow deeper in Christ.
Some things that need changing during the summer:
1) getting all this poo poo out of my head and focusing on what's important
2) open myself up to meeting new people, sharing about faith in God, and getting to know more about my Brothers and Sisters in Christ
3) get in the Good Book, and center myself around God again
4) mature (cuz I’m just a boy)
It's times like these that are hard to endure, but it's also times like these when you're given the greatest opportunities to change yourself for the better.
On a lighter note I guess. I'm looking forward to going to China for the first time in my life! Leaving this Sunday!! Going to miss the camping, and the bowling/fellowship with fellow lyfers though BUMMER. After China, I got the lacrosse camps, and the summer workouts with the best sports team I’ve ever been on (I love those buff lacrosse guys) to look forward to, basketball league, and hopefully getting to write up some songs and record it with some 'talented musicians' in someone’s basement. One thing I didn't mention, that i know is going to be the highlight of my summer is YUGO. I've been waiting to go on YUGO for 3ish years now, and finally, I get to go and experience hands on, service for God, and get a glimpse on whether this kind of ministry lies in my future. Anything I forgot to mention just let me know, like hanging out with some certain friends, you know!