yup, no Meghan = No life, lol
So, Meghan is with Captain Happypants out in BFE in Wickenburg to go see the Wildlife Preserve. And I am at home, hanging out with my dad. I made some muffins, overdone, but yummy, and picked a pound of onions out of our dinner. I cleaned my room again, which means I have some more laundry to do, because now that I have done it all, I am afraid to stop doing it. I am going to go into my room in a few and throw out anything and everything from high school. My excuse is that I need more room for Kory's stuff, but the real reason is I don't see any reason to keep anything from that time in my life. Especially because I am supposed to be a grown up now, or something like one. Mom's don't need notes sitting around from freshman year, ya know? Which reminds me, I am really happy to be hanging out with someone new. Even if we do the same thing everyday, and it's totally boring, it's refreshing to be around someone that acknowledges the future. As in the real future, not just next week. It's also nice that she doesn't try to NOT discuss the blatantly obvious fact that YES, I AM IN FACT REALLY AND TRULY GOING TO HAVE A BABY THIS MONTH. And she doesn't ignore it and not let me talk about it, or try to change the subject when I do. What a change to the people I am used to. Even my own family. The more I have given this thought, the more angry I have gotten. I never expected anyone to jump for joy that I got pregnant at 20, with the child of someone who had no job, and who I had only been with a few months... Regardless of the fact that it was nothing short of a miracle, seeing as my reproductive system is fucked. But I never thought everyone would talk so much shit about it, or about the baby's daddy, who has turned into a better friend than I have ever had, as well as the BEST lover ever. At least I am still going to go on with the life I had planned. College, a career, a house, a marraige. We just decided to be a little bit backwards about it. And I have a relationship that is real. We see eachother everyday, we don't have to go to seperate parties, or ignore certain people at the same party, the way I had to do with Tom. I don't have to fight with him to get him to hang out with me, he is more than willing to do anything and everything to make me happy, even if that means he's cranky for two minutes or so. Shit, he leaves work early to drive over and get an apology from a creditor for questioning my thus far unknown parenting abilities. lol. It's nothing short of a miracle. Unfortunately, everyone I used to share news like this with, is consumed by their own drama, or pissed at me for finally, once in my life, being honest about how I feel. So... from here on out lets just get it out of the way: If you don't like what I have to say, tough shit. I am no longer in the mood to just accomidate (I know that's spelled wrong) everyone around me. I am about to be a mother for Christ's sakem the last thing I have in mind right now are the feelings of others around me who can't handle the truth because they have always just been told what they want to hear. Also, if you are in any way uncomfortable with the fact that I AM IN FACT HAVING A BABY THIS MONTH, than do us all a fucking favor, and consider yourself dead to me from this point on. Because, quite frankly, I was already planning on getting rid of you anyway. Now, I will move on... I really anjoyed having David over the other day, even just for a short time. It was a little wierd, giving me all sorts of deja vu and stirring up all sorts of things in my head, but once I gave myself a couple minutes, it was good. I expected him to be very not okay with my pregnancy, oddly enough, he almost seems excited for me. *No one die of shock, that yes, some are happy for me.* I hope maybe we will hang out more now. I know Steve wouldn't mind a little testosterone around here for once. lol. Poor him, and my dad too for that matter. I seem to be out of angry things to say... how odd... lets see, in that case, Meghan I hope you're not still lost, and that your pancakes taste as good as the pizza from yesterday, and I really hope Cpt. Happypants makes it back alive and doesn't make you smoke a cigarette, cause you're the only will power I've got once Kory is outta here!! :-) (And Steve...) K. BYE!