i am leaving i am leaving.

[skinnyxbitch]

3 months sober.
i wondered what happened to you
apologizing to myself for what happened
to me
1 last hit, turned into 30 more
into what seemed like
you wanted this forever.
you sleep well without me
but i can't sleep at all.
(my bed always feels empty)
i am perfect
because you tell me so
time is ticking against me
always wanting to be against you
3 minutes sober
and still feeling like an addict,
you have left ruined.

yup. all over. again.