she woke in the morning..
Today [or well technically yesterday] has been one of the best days i've had in a long time. Pancakes gave me a pressie that he made like in my face but I thought it was for his secret santa present. It's something I think only someone like me would enjoy.
I just spent like hours talking to Sammi and I really just sit in awe of our friendship. We've gone so fucking long without talking and it's like there was never a missed beat. I can really just tell her anything and she understands and if she doesn't there's no well in hell she's going to judge me. We went from Pancakes, to hating girls that gag in BJ scenes in porn, to my dreams of being a photographer.
Tonight I remembered all those dreams I forgot about. I've wanted to be a photographer since I picked up a camera in 6th grade. When I saw fetish and pin-up photography for the first time, I wanted to capture that. That look of longing desire. I wanted to make the viewer want so badly the image they could not have. To make them think about the sound of the woman on the page..
I remembered the band that changed my life. I remembered what the words meant to me and how they made me feel, how the lyrics summed up everything I was feeling at the time. I recalled the first time I heard his voice and how it made me feel so calm, but made me want to go out and do so many things at once. To do so many things with my life...
I will be home in 2 days. I will be with you next week.
I just spent like hours talking to Sammi and I really just sit in awe of our friendship. We've gone so fucking long without talking and it's like there was never a missed beat. I can really just tell her anything and she understands and if she doesn't there's no well in hell she's going to judge me. We went from Pancakes, to hating girls that gag in BJ scenes in porn, to my dreams of being a photographer.
Tonight I remembered all those dreams I forgot about. I've wanted to be a photographer since I picked up a camera in 6th grade. When I saw fetish and pin-up photography for the first time, I wanted to capture that. That look of longing desire. I wanted to make the viewer want so badly the image they could not have. To make them think about the sound of the woman on the page..
I remembered the band that changed my life. I remembered what the words meant to me and how they made me feel, how the lyrics summed up everything I was feeling at the time. I recalled the first time I heard his voice and how it made me feel so calm, but made me want to go out and do so many things at once. To do so many things with my life...
I will be home in 2 days. I will be with you next week.