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[skinnywins_____]

Im so huge its crazy.
I need help.
But recovery=fat.
my parents are so fucking clueless.
its obvious i have an eating disorder but they
dont love me enough to help me.
but i dont love myself enough to get help either.
i want to tell my therapist.shes asked before,
but ive said no.I just want to eat without
feeling guilty.
Im worth more than that.
can someone please tell me what to do?