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It's dawning on me... how sad it is how best friends turn into strangers. When we walked together, our arms would always be linked together. Constantly making each other laugh. We would be those girls who, after a long period apart, would run towards each other, screaming how much we missed each other.
I think it's my fault. My insecurities got in the way. I'm insecure... because I hate what I see in the mirror... and I can't see how other people could see me any other way... so I can't relax and just enjoy the moment... I don't ever let myself go. I'm always in control of myself when I'm around others, but that's incredibly boring and it's not really me. But I don't know how to let go. And it's just getting worse.
I'm not interested in making new friendships on this campus. It's just another place for me to leave. I don't trust the people here anymore, they're all the same to me. I must look really angry, walking around campus. I never have a smile on my face. I don't stop to talk to anyone. I don't want to speak anyone. People only hurt you.
I think it's my fault. My insecurities got in the way. I'm insecure... because I hate what I see in the mirror... and I can't see how other people could see me any other way... so I can't relax and just enjoy the moment... I don't ever let myself go. I'm always in control of myself when I'm around others, but that's incredibly boring and it's not really me. But I don't know how to let go. And it's just getting worse.
I'm not interested in making new friendships on this campus. It's just another place for me to leave. I don't trust the people here anymore, they're all the same to me. I must look really angry, walking around campus. I never have a smile on my face. I don't stop to talk to anyone. I don't want to speak anyone. People only hurt you.
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