post xmas shopping!
I can't believe 2007 is ending soon. This is probably my last entry of the year so I'll try to make it philosiphical or whatever.
2007 has probably been my best year since dad walked out 7 years ago. I don't really know what it was but I just felt myself getting stronger and just realizing that life is too damn short to be anything but happy. Could things be better? hell yeah. I still have nights that I'm up until 2 or 3 o clock crying about things that have happened in the past that I shouldn't be worrying about anymore. But it's who i am and I'll get better at dealing with stuff when I'm ready.
I've finally been able to accept myself for my shortcomings. That is something that i have battled with for twenty years. Yeah i still live with my mom and am probably a little too attached for my age but I have a relationship with my mom that i wouldn't trade for anything in the world. I will never ever be a size two. And i really don't want to be. I love my curves and I may not always like what i see in the mirror but how many people do? The hardest thing was accepting my health for what it is. It's very exhausting and overwhleming but it is what it is. Not being able to drive or work because of it sucks but I make do. Ebay is really perfect for me. I guess i went too long getting angry at God for constantly throwing these things at me that i never stopped to realize that they make me stronger and that if i have him on my side I'll be okay.
I'm a little superstitious and think that even years are bad for me. so Hopefully 2008 will break that trend!
Happy new year everyone <3
2007 has probably been my best year since dad walked out 7 years ago. I don't really know what it was but I just felt myself getting stronger and just realizing that life is too damn short to be anything but happy. Could things be better? hell yeah. I still have nights that I'm up until 2 or 3 o clock crying about things that have happened in the past that I shouldn't be worrying about anymore. But it's who i am and I'll get better at dealing with stuff when I'm ready.
I've finally been able to accept myself for my shortcomings. That is something that i have battled with for twenty years. Yeah i still live with my mom and am probably a little too attached for my age but I have a relationship with my mom that i wouldn't trade for anything in the world. I will never ever be a size two. And i really don't want to be. I love my curves and I may not always like what i see in the mirror but how many people do? The hardest thing was accepting my health for what it is. It's very exhausting and overwhleming but it is what it is. Not being able to drive or work because of it sucks but I make do. Ebay is really perfect for me. I guess i went too long getting angry at God for constantly throwing these things at me that i never stopped to realize that they make me stronger and that if i have him on my side I'll be okay.
I'm a little superstitious and think that even years are bad for me. so Hopefully 2008 will break that trend!
Happy new year everyone <3