Apr 17, 2005 10:05
ok i told her no..that i couldnt date her cos i wasnt ready..n then she left for half an hour n cried..i know she cried cos emma told me! ...i told emma to drag her back on the pc so i could try n cheer her up n she did come back n i managed to cheer her up!
we got talkin again n stayed up all night again till jus after 6am..i aint been to sleep yet but still feel perky lol...anyway we was talkin n shit all night n we got on so well..i mean all the bad girl talk n swearin n stuff was jus a cover for who she realy is..n i got to know her..the real her n she is so nice!! ...we spent most of the night readin each others minds i swear to God it was freaky...we both kept askin n sayin the same stuff AT THE SAME TIME lol :-\
im actually startin to realy realy like her which is so not wat i need rite now!!!!!!!!!! ...i aint ready for another relationship...n its way too soon after my old one..but i realy like this girl n i dunno wat the hell to do...i wish someone could tell me wat the rite thing to do would be..anyone?? :'(
after my old relationship ended with my gf i thought id NEVER find anyone like her again..u know someone i felt connected with...but i think i hav found her n its rippin me up inside...my heart still beats for my x-gf n the love i hav for her will never go away...but can i afford to let this girl slip away n maybe never find her again n spend my life searchin n alone?!!
i love my x-gf with all my heart n i will always be here for her nomatter wat...if she needs someone to talk too...money..help with something or even a fuckin kidney ill be there for her!
i jus dont know wat to do...wish i had someone to help me for a change instead of me helpin everyone else with there problems...im human n i hurt too
so this is me cryin out for help..someone please help me with this